I finally did it

Today, I finally told him.

He was so sad, when he heard it, but quickly turned it into super supportive mode.

He comforted me, told me that he's glad that I told him and everytime I think about doing it, I "must" call him, that he would rather be awake at 1am than me doing something and suffering alone.

It felt so relieving, but so wrong at the same time, but i'm glad that I finally took the curage and told him.

He thanked me for telling him over and over again. I couldn't be more happy tbh.

I feel so relieved rn, as if a stone had fallen from my heart. I love how he handled it. How he comforted me, because we were talking about something that was happening and it triggered me so bad, that I told myself "I really should tell him now".

Emma and others who responded to my stories really helped me realize, that I shouldn't suffer with this alone.

And I wasn't even alone. I had and still have you guys. I just wanted to thank everyone who even read my stories and didn't say anything, you really helped me and I love yall so so much and I wish you only the best.

It takes time, but at some point you realize, that you're really not alone if you suffer with litearly anything (I hope that this makes sense, english is not my first language).

This sadly doesn't mean that I won't have any thoughts in the future or whatsoever, but I'm going to know that I have someone that is going to support me no matter what.

All my love goes to you guys, love you <3