I think about it just about every day

@rainyday2378 You know what, it is not a shame to be broken inside. I mean, everyone are partly broken within themselves now. The only difference is the degree and how it is dealt. Hard to admit, but the fact that hurtin g youself is only making things worse determines the truth that you should not do it anymore cause it has no help with the situation. I know, the desire of cuttin g yourself may be too strong to hold, so why don't you try to hur t yourself in another way? I mean, a good way, more positive way, such as running kilos per day till you feel too tired to continue? That's also self harmin g, but which doesn't crush or kil l you. It only makes you strong, strong enough to overcome the situation now. Hope you do well. All the best.