I wish I don't

Not too long ago I started self harm and it has put my mind at ease.... At first. Now all I think of is why I still do it. Honestly the best way to describe it is an addiction. I cut myself personally and the scars say things. Making lies when people ask about them hurts and hiding them eventually is pointless. So before y'all get sucked in get out. Sure I keep doing for my peace of mind, but when I think about it I hate it