Kinda rant+update (possible trigger?)
25 days clean, it hard but glad i’m on school holidays as it’s easier then at school. The last two days have been hard though, the urge gets quite strong at times and it leaves me in tears. Why is life so hard? Why can’t i just be normal? Why am I so pathetic, worthless and stupid most the time? I wish i could go back in time and be that sweet, innocent, carefree little girl again.
@willingSugar9815 Hi, I hope you are doing well. First, I want you to know that you are not pathetic or worthless. You are so strong and such an amazing person! I am so proud of you for 25 days clean! 😊❤️ You should be proud of yourself too! I know the urges can be really tough sometimes, but you are doing so good! It's important to try and find distractions to keep yourself and your thoughts busy. What are some things you like to do? Doing fun things is a great way to keep yourself active! Here is a list of some great ways to distract yourself when you may be having urges: https://projectlets.org/alternatives-to-selfharm You can also text the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 if you want to talk to a counselor when you are having a difficult time. We are here for you! 😊
You are not pathetic, worthless or stupid. I also ask myself why can't I be normal? Maybe some of us can be normal for each other. Self harming is a coping mechanism not a great one but a coping mechanism. Just remember you're not alone.