Needed to réalèse some thoughts (could be considered as a trigger for some ig)

I want to scream

I want to cry

But I can't

I just want to be ok

Long goes those distant memories

I use to not care about what they said

I use to not bare these scars

I use to not think of inflicting them on my self

I only want to be ok

I use to not consider not eating

I use to not want to expell the wood I ate

I use to not care how many steps i would take

I use to be innocent, naive and ok

There was a time, where my thoughts and mind weren’t so loud

Where my thought and mind were not so dark

A time where all i had to worry about was stupid childhood hopes and problems

When did all go so downhill

When did i say enough was enough and start doing what I do

I want to be ok

What happened

When did every bite be weighed with anxiety, guit and the need to make up for it

When did food become a chore

When did I have my fall from grace

When did I become home to the demons

when did I start seeing *** as home

When did I start to rule the underworld

I just want to be ok

My brain aches for a break

My body aches for perfection

My heart aches to be ok again

Why did they have to do this to me

not even that

why didn’t they notice

Why didn’t they help

It didn’t have to get this bad