Please I am so confused
[English is not my first language, so I am sorry for that]
So I have been SH myself from a long time like more than 2 years. And I usually use compass or cutter, I don't use blade cause I don't want my parents to know that I am sh myself (with the compass and cutter it's not that deep, so I kinda manage myself) But lately I am having these instincts where I think I will get relief only when I use a blade, as with the compass and cutter the scars don't stay for a long time.
I wanna stay with the compass and cutter only, please what to do?
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hey!! I've been there, as a person who's common method of sh is/was (trying to be clean) scratching, but ive also cut before. sometimes when scratching I've wanted to cut instead. horrible feeling. id say if you can ask someone for help. it sounds like you wanna escalate the behavior. also hide blades.