Severe stress

Very stressful things happening in my life right now. I want to self-harm, but I already did a few days ago. I'm terrible at keeping clean. I want to tell someone but everyone I could tell is in a bad place, and I don't want to contribute to someone else's stress. I don't want to become a burden.

I always feel like I'm on the back burner, like whatever is happening to the people around me is usually more important than whatever's going on with me. I don't understand why I feel this way, I'm afraid that it makes me seem childish. I just always feel ignored or misunderstood in some way, like I'm a poor communicator.