triggering - 136 days gone
I want to apologise but can't as I don't currently mean it
136 days down the drain, I can say I'm no longer clean
I feel numb, my body heavy
I have barely eaten, only a sandwich but probably throw up most of it, it doesn't matter i'm not hungry anyways
@willingSugar9815,
Hey there, breaking a streak can bring in a lot of hevy emotions, how have you been? Is it okay to ask how are you doing? ( Only if you are comfortable sharing)
@Emerbliss
hey sorry it’s been so long, i’ve kinda taking an unexpected break and been busy, honestly a little while after this post i started to get everything back on track if you will (i’m 24 days clean) but i’m struggling a lot at the moment but thanks replying sorry i didn’t get back to you sooner
@willingSugar9815 , hehe. Nothing to apologize about. All of need a breather at times. So happy to hear you were using it to gat back on board . 24 days sounds huge , especially what such a set back. It's a joy beyond for to know that. Thank you ^^
Don't let it hurt you too much, 136 days is fantastic and you can look at it like this - you've done it once, and you can do it again! If things are rough do what you can to look after yourself, but you made a fantastic achievement so don't see it as wasted time. Do you think someone training for a marathon thinks their time is wasted when they run a shorter distance, or a slower time? Of course they don't, it's all practice. 136 days is a personal best maybe? Be proud of it as best you can