My sh story, need advice
So when I get down and feel like the world if better off without me I tend to get rather wreckless. For the first bit of my bad episodes I cut or burn myself and then I moved into seeing how far I can push the limits on the roads near me by driving as fast as I can get the truck and not letting up typically ends in me almost wrecking through the 3 mile stretch of curves and sitting at the end of the straight away looking at the oak tree on the other side wondering if I just want to go ahead and end it that way or find a other way. I went to do it last night and stopped right before the tree and cried myself to sleep because I didn't know what else to do. I don't want to leave my friends the way I've been left but I can't be happy right now no matter how hard I try.
@averageJoe136
Friend. Maybe you need to reach out to people/therapist/help-telephone to talk to someone.
I've tried, they put me on a bunch of meds that made it to where I couldn't think straight or hardly walk around. And I'm afraid to talk to friends because I'm afraid they won't want to be around me if they knew the truth
@averageJoe136
Friend.
I'm very glad you're at 7Cups. Here you can tell as many times as you want to of the things that are bringing you down. It is not nice to be in the rabbit-whole (I have tried it). I'm very sad that you hurt your wonderful body. And I pray to Jesus Christ who loves you that you'll not do that again.
To me it seems like you got too much med., maybe another doctor is better. I take antidep. for my depression myself - but med. do not always help.
I hope you'll one day see that you're a wonderful being, there is only one of you at this earth.
So talk here at 7Cups. If one listener is not good for you, please go to the next. To go to groups can also be good, just to listen or tell a bit of your story.
Friend - you're loved by the Creator and many, many at 7Cups.