Relapse TW
So I’ve been clean for a couple years and here we are again. I had a bad urge a week ago and I gave in. I think it’s worst than before. I just want to sh just to do it and I do it nearly every day. I’m either completely emotional numb or feel everything at once and this seems like my only way to control the emotions, or lack of. But i almost don’t feel guilt or bad like I did before, maybe it’s because I’m having a hard time feeling much lately idek. I also find myself wanting to cut deeper, and I get mad at myself when I don’t. Does anyone else ever feel like that? I’m sorry if this is too much but I have literally nobody to share this with. Thanks to anyone who reads or responds :)
Awe honey it's going to be okay alright. I have never cut but I hahe sh and i felt terrible after but I'm not her to talk about that, I'm super proud you made it to a year I really am <3 and I may not be the best at helping people with sh but I can give great support and trust me when I say I'm peoid of tou I am but we all have those times when things are getting really bad and you have to fight the urge to sh and sometime you let it get to you dont worry ot perfectly normal to relapse and there is nothing wrong with it or you your perfect the way you are I may not know who you are and you might not know who I am but trust me I am so proud of you for making it a year that is such a great place and I belive that you can make it again , try little steps when I want to scratch myself as sh I make bracelets becouse it moves my hand you should try it. I really hope this makes your day it's not every day I write big texts like this to complete strangers but I love you alot and I hope I get to know you better xx stay strong I'm proud of you :) <3
