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self-harm feels rewarding

User Profile: edenescence
edenescence October 8th, 2021

i've been clean from self-harm for almost a month and ever since my mother found out, i started controlling my urges. the urges are still here, they're still very strong. i get this urge to self-harm even when nothing bad happened, it just feels like a reward rather than a punishment because it feels good. after i finally finish doing something my mind immediately resorts to self-harm, its a bit terrifying, but i still have things under control. just thought i'd like to share.

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User Profile: Sonnenschein2000
Sonnenschein2000 October 8th, 2021

@edenescence

Hey, I'm not a listener, but I just wanted to let you know that it's okay. I know it feels scary, you are not alone, I feel like this too sometimes! This feels weird because not many people maybe talk about it in this way, but I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in feeling like this. I'm so proud of you, we can get through this.

Wish I could have more words to tell you right now, but anyway feel free to let me know how you feel if you want. Take care of yourself, please.

User Profile: electricreach
electricreach October 19th, 2021

congratulations on doing so well so far. you should feel accomplished!

it is a little freaky how hardwired our brains are to seek out dopamine, but you're really amazing for how far you've come. i hope you can reward yourself with something else instead!

User Profile: Carrie1980
Carrie1980 October 19th, 2021

I unfortunately cut my wrist last year and it’s a big scar.


ive tried so many cream and oils


any ideas? I live in a hot country!


would a tattoo help