I relapsed again…
So yesterday I was about a month clean however I sh yesterday. This is because I just either don’t feel good enough anymore and because I just feel useless all the time. Also I do it because my scars are fading and it makes me sad knowing that they are not there and when I see other peoples scars and they aren't like mine and they and deeper it just makes me want to do it again because I feel like I didn’t do it good enough and I should have done it deeper.
I have scars of my own also, I know the urge to want to do it again is huge! but those scars are there to remind us of our hard times. I'm proud of my scars because I wouldn't be who I am today without them, finding something you love to do really releases those trapped emotions inside you that build up over time, and it hurts holding so much emotions in, I love to sing and singing has helped me release so much emotions, I'm not that great a singer but when you have so much built in... somehow I can cry just to my own singing but that's part of releasing my emotions. It's okay if scars fade away, what matters the most is looking forward to the future, there is so much in this world to explore and learn about yourself. Keep your head up, and most importantly Love yourself ❤️ never let the negativity ruin your happiness 😊 hold your head high ❤️
