struggling with s/h (bad english ahead)
I've been struggling with s/h ever since i was 12, I'd only do it once in a while back then, but still.
Now that I'm 16, I find it a lot harder to stop harming myself. Most of the advice i received don't work that well.
In the past 2 weeks, I've been experiencing a lot of random emotional outbursts, and more than half of the time, it led me to hurt myself impulsively. I've already had a lot of scars on both my thighs and my arms from doing sh, and I always feel guilty whenever I look at them despite wanting to recover.
I want to get help or any kind of support from a person i trust, or anyone at all.
I want support from my online friends, but i feel like I'd bother them and some of them would choose to ignore me anyway. I want support from an irl friend, but a majority of them would call me "emo" and make fun of me for this. I want support from my family, but they still have a stigma against mental health and the only family members who care about mental health problems don't even take me seriously.
I'm really desperate and i don't know what to do, where to start. It's ruining me
Aw I’m sorry! You are not alone! Do you have access to therapy or counseling? Feel free to message me on here too. I hope you can find some in person friends who will not judge you too.
Hey, if ya ever feel like talking Im willing to listen. So you cope with It someone. I lived the same, start at 12, and been quiting an falling all over the years, now Im 17, so we are almost the same age. Anything ya need or Talk or so. Im willing to listen. I mean It. And in the end you Dont lose anything by trying. If It doesnt convince you, you can always stop. I Hope you the best.