trigger warning slip up
not sure were to put this but here seem like right place
this last weekend we was very sick we had a friend who was demanding we text her and talk to her on phone every day. this did not happen as when we sick we mostly sleep. well she blow up our phone also all day sunday we had told her at 11:05pm sat. night we was still sick and most likely not answer phone or texts tomorrow that being sunday. she got mad tryed to get us to answer her text by thread to be done with us. she did almost same thing on frb 16th.
well that night due to thoughts we came on 7cups. was trying hard not to acted on the thoughts. but after we went offline we end up stretching our arm. it not bad at all but we feel shame, guilt, anger and as if we disappointed others too. we have really missed up this last month with 2 slip ups after few years being self harm free. really not sure why we have been having so many serlf harm thoughts. even dreams about self harm this not happened before this in long time. truth is that it kinda scary for us right now.
we know this sounds stupid but we can trust more in like a group of people then one on one. we fearful of even trying to do one on one with listener too. sounds stupid right
It sounds like you've been going through some really tough moments, and I’m so sorry that you’re dealing with this. The shame, guilt, and anger you're feeling are common reactions when someone has been through struggles like self-harm and has moments where they feel like they've "slipped up." But please know that these moments do not define you, and having those thoughts doesn’t make you weak or wrong. What matters is that you're still here, reaching out, and you’re doing your best to take care of yourself, even when things feel really hard. That’s something to hold on to.
@CheeryMango
thank you it been one thing after another last few months. so realty think you for hearing us.supports something we not really had much of. we use to supporting others more then asking for support. but been different since we came to 7 cups. more like supporting others and getting support too. we have battled self harm from a very young age. we doing a lot better then we use to do. use to self harm daily and well very badly. we use to have to go to ER a lot. that not happened in many years now. so we doing lot better. but it still hard not to acted on the thoughts too