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Hi Im mak, I was in 6th grade when I started cutting the abuse at home was just getting worse and my friend pricked her finger and for some reason I was like oh cutting will help I was cutting all the time until 9th grade when my mom found out she was nice at first then when she was mad would tell me to go cut my self so 10th grade I started again my freshman year was a lot to handle being homeless then living with my moms pedo ex until 10 the grade we had our own home and I felt safe until school life got so bad Id hide and cry my hole lunch and try not to be noticed in class that summer I was sexually assaulted and my mom didnt do anything or wouldnt want to talk about it so I almost OD on sleeping pills and every other pills I could find my junior year I got confused and boob... sorry but it was a game changer cause I felt stronger and more confident but I got pregnant... a broke condom... my mom wasnt ever home after that.. I was starving and alone shed tell me she didnt wanna effect my decision but I knew that was a lie she couldnt look at me.. after I had my abortion my mom was happy joking in the car ride home when I can remember me screaming and crying as it happened cause I loved what was growing in me but I knew a 16 year old who cant even get a meal couldnt give this baby the life it needed my mom told me how much my abortion hurt her but never how I felt my senior year... the second semester wasnt the best I was in a toxic relationship.. it destroyed me so I started cutting and when I got out of the relationship I still was depressed so I turned to burning.. I tried to keep it short Im sorry if its to long and now Im homeless leaving because my mom so yay to a new life and better mental health I hope
First off... wow. Just... wow. Some people shouldn't parent.
Secondly, it's good that you were able to leave that relationship. It sounds like it would only get worse if you stayed. Do you have any friends that you can bunk with?
@BlueIsQuiet Im at the airport rn leaving the state last night I sat at a park waiting for my friends to answer to stay somewhere instead of sleeping at the park
@Makancheez
Yeah, sleeping at the park isn't preferable. Would they let you sleep at the airport?
I mean... obviously that's not preferable either, but if you end up having nowhere to go...
@BlueIsQuiet well that happened last night a friend anwsered at 1 am and I got picked up Im leaving the state rn were about to board
@Makancheez
Okay. Well, make sure you've found shelter before too long. I imagine this is all pretty overwhelming, but that should be priority right now. I hope that the community here can help you on the way there.
@Makancheez
You went through a lot... I felt such a sadness reading your post. It does sound as you are trying to take care of yourself and this is great. Having a support system and friends you can turn to in difficult moments I am sure will help you. I wish you a safe journey. We are also here to support you <3