the bullies can't bully everything to get through their life.

Hello everyone, today I want to talk about bulling and something that happened to me today.

I have a point, I'll add it billow after sharing.

If you don't like to read the sharing part and want to jump to the bullying discussion part, feel free to scroll until reaching the green colored lines which starts with an 🟢 emoji.

As some of you may know, I'm in my exam month. So far I attended 2 exams.

First one was a language. I did well in it, regarding my disability, I fought to study, I tried and I earned an ok grade.

That day, after I handing over my exam page and wenting outside, an teacher has came to the class and picked up my paper. She has said to the class something similar to "this student answered most of this correctly"

Long story short, unfortunately, almost the whole class realized I had studied hard and did ok at the exam, therefore leading to something awful today...

Today... Today I had math exam. 9th grade math exam. I absolutely tried, to memorize formulas, to learn, to fight anxiety and many more.

Because of my disability, I can't sit more than a settled time. We asked of a math teacher to come to our house, I would take breaks between listens to lay down in my room inorder to rest and reset my health to continue.

We paid a lot for this teacher..

I suffer from ocd, anxiety and depression. I battled my way through all those to learn math correctly, without getting distracted.

Now today...

When I entered the class, some people were like "ooh you need to help us score well" or "I have 3 kids please tell me the answers" or "the x teacher told us you did well, we're counting on you"

From the looks of it some of them hadn't studied anything in a long time, or they were asking questions which meant they know almost nothing of 9th grade's math subject.

I ignored them and told them it was an accident etc.

When they handed us the exam papers, almost every one went crazy and started abusing me.

In example, the woman who were setting next to me kept standing and bending over me to see my answers.

People were almost constantly asking me "what was the 11th question's answer?" Is that m or x?" "Let me see your paper for a sec" "please tell me the question's answer" "c'mon you gotta help me pass this" 

I tried to ignore them completely, but in a very short time, I become highly restless, anxious, stressed, angry, frustrated, overwhelmed and very unfortunately, distracted...

Then the watcher who was "supposed" to watch over us to stop the cheating, took pictures of my pages to show them to other students.

Then She even began to read aloud some answers.

It's hard to describe how hurt I was; or still am aster thinking about those moments. I don't think I can forgive them.

After I handed over my papers, I believe almost everyone got up to continue cheating directly from my pages, I leaved the class.

After telling these to my mother, we let the school manager know what happened.

I'm really eager to know what happens next, but I doubt I will earn justice.

The people who absolutely didn't study enough, probably had earned an 70%-100% scoring because of me.

Yet I was the one who endured all the pains and tried and paid to learn, not them.

I will not accept the damage the done to me, it wasn't they just earning an fake grade, most unfortunately it was me getting distracted and forgetting things I knew and not doing the best I could, because of them...

I know I over talked again, buttttt, I learned something from all of this which gave me some ease of mind. I'm going to share it with you kind people too 

🟢A bully, or lazy student who has no accepted reason behind their actions, the person who cheated not because of mental/ physical health challenges,

Just because they chose to watch movies instead of studying,

Will not be having an excellent future.

That person, cannot cheat/ bully everything that comes to their way to pass life's challenges.

One of them said she wantd to study phycology after this year,

How can you survive university when you couldn't even study for an 9ths grade exam?

Imagine you will cheat alllll your way through your education,

The moment you start whatever career, you won't be able to stand the smallest task.

Yet be a phycologist to "help" others

Oh my God helps the poor human who comes to "you" to get professional help 

Oh I forget, if you "ever" be able to have any real education and career.

The bullies are Losers as long as they don't begin the path of healing and curing from this disorder.

So, don't let their "right now" action define you or make you feel awful (like how it did to me obviously)

Reacting thoughtlessly probably won't make anything better, I could have start yelling and leaving the class but I still have exams to attend and sit next to these so called classmate.

I can't risk my life, but I can try to ask the school manager to change my class etc

So please take care of yourself, but think about the not so great future that waits the abuses,

Because of their own actions and choices.

They will face defeat and failing one day, an defeat which is honestly miserable.

They will one day beg others to help them through things which is their own responsibility and consciousness,

But fail to receive the *** they "except" to receive, again.

Life challenges not always will be solving math problems,

It's sometimes life or TW// death// important.

And then my fellow readers, they can't ask or force another one to fix everything for them.

Bullies start an pathetic journey ahead of them

A reality which is harder, and sooner than they expect.

I also feel I need to share something else, I know some of my Friends, or family cheated in their exams, by asking ai in example.

But none of them abused another person in order to achieve their goal,

Their cheating didn't hurt anyone, disrespect anyone's boundaries or ignored anyone's right.

They cheated the way that was completely on them, without distracting others.

Also cheated on subjects they had to study, which was useless to the career they have right now.

Their cheating didn't affect anyone else's life.

Also I know some of them wasn't really in the right mindset and situation to study enough.

Some of them was dealing with things that let them almost no option but to ask ai in order to escape from an worse situation.

I respect them and won't judge them at all.

Here's a life experience I want to share about cheating:

I remember asking my counselor "why shouldn't I cheat? It doesn't affect anyone."

She answered me "one time a mother came to me seeking help for her child. I told her what she needs to do. She offered me extra money and asked me to do the thing instead of her. I told her: you are the mother of this child and it's your responsibility to the thing"

So, if you learn to cheat your way through small things from now on, you won't be able to achieve goals and be responsible in future.

(I tried to type the exact way I remembered but it could be not the same yk? I also translated everything so I could've been wrong about some things but I tried.)

Now, Im really eager to hear you're thoughts,

Dose my theory help you to cope with the bullying you experienced?

Feel free to share as much about anything related as you like.

To all the teenies who experienced bullying in their education path or are still experiencing.

Tagging @Jesusredeemedme2425 (Kiara) to kindly ask them to mention people who they know might be dealing with the similar challenge(s).

🪶seeker