Alcohol
I was an alcoholic 2 years ago but since then i haven't touched a single drop but i get extremely thirsty or anxious when someone is drinking near me like i want to rip that glass from them and gulp everything down. I have stopped going out because of this.
wow that sounds like a powerful feeling......and maybe if you keep from going out for awhile to reflect why?
I am very curious to talk with anyone who has overcome an addiction because frankly i have never had those feelings about anything....
What do you feel a drink will do for you if you did rip it out of someones hand ?
Was the feeling after drinking that appealing or was it a short lived moment of who cares that appeals to you?
did you like yourself when drinking? did others like you drinking?
honestly i know a few recovering alcoholics and I liked them better when they were drinking....
you quit drinking and work on not touching again ( probably daily) so you might have had a reason to quit .... does that reason still exist?
all my siblings are addicts in one form or another..... and spouse is a recovering alcoholic .......... I always felt if i could understand addiction from someone else's point of view i could have more empathy towards those in my life who struggle.
I guess it's the feeling i get that if i had just one drop all my anxiety and stress would go away. Yes it happens but only for a short period of time and then everything comes crashing down and i feel horrible. Offcourse after drinking i was a delight i was carefree, laughing, enjoying and people do tell me that carefree part of you is now gone. I liked myself after drinking and others liked me too but gradually i became an entirely different person my whole persona became extremely dark. I was mean, angry or extremely sensitive picking up fights. People close to me became concerned and that's when i realised i had to leave it. I since have never picked any drink in the fear that I would become the same person who was obnoxious and hurtful so yeah the reason exists but i crave it a lot. I guess it will take longer for the cravings to go away.
@Shivs012345
What you have written seems to be similar to all the others i asked those questions to ...stress and anxiety may be dulled for a short time but NOT gone...
and so often the fun loving carefree person does turn dark....
I hope each struggle you have with staying away from alcohol .. you remember the items that keep you sober... it is very hard to fight that feeling
Thank you for your kind words. More power to you. 🙌