I'm a mess
Been struggling with my alcoholism for 3 years and I cant seem to ever get it together. Everytime I drink I become incredibly irresponsible, every single time I drink I break my lover's heart and in turn it breaks mine. So now I've found myself in the most crowded of prisons existing with all my demons and not seeing any escape out for me. I'm crippled, I've abused my self, i am alone, but I still walk and hope I can go sober for longer than my last streak. I've become my worst nightmare and I have to accept it. I know I have to but this is just so terribly difficult. I have faith I can move forward but at the same time I don't, I really hope I can.
Hello cm, welcome to 7Cups! We are happy to have you here with us. I really appreciate you opening up to us and seeking support; that takes so much courage. It is strange to be at a crossroads between hope and turmoil . You show great self awareness, and your outlook will make a great difference in recovery. It is never too late to change ones lifestyle. We are here for you!
If you have any concerns or questions, let us know. Best wishes! :)
@cmhern135
@lovelyWhisper66 thank you for your response, it means alot! Just have to be conscience of my thoughts as the day shifts. Happy to be open to receive help and feedback.