I'm stopping
I've been heavily drinking for 4 years now. Lots lead me down that path. Was recently diagnosed with BPD and that just made it worse. My tolerance just grew stronger and stronger. I blackout regularly. I do things and don't remember. I finally have decided to put my foot down and stop all together. It isn't good for my overall health... Not that I ever didn't acknowledge that.
It was always a coping mechanism. I would not feel anything due to mental numbness, and drinking allowed me to open up to close friends and let it out. Then it became a habit. And the more I did it, the more I relied on it. I didn't get the physical hangovers, moreso emotional hangovers.
I realized I wasn't being fair to those that loved me being that way.
Idk.
But does anyone have any tips to stay on this path? I know if I even have one I will spiral again. I messaged my closest friends asking them to not offer it to me or even mention it, they are all super supportive. But I haven't been around them since and I am super nervous.
How do I keep busy?
How do I distract myself when the cravings hit? It's already a struggle and it's only been a few days.
Also, a side note: I know I have an addictive personality so I never tried anything different. I knew they would spiral too. How do I for lack of better words.... Get addicted to something good? Ughhhhhh
@dani20 Hi! Originally, I would have thought a TV show or something that was just a mindless activity, but I figured that would be a bit boring. I would try to find something a super engaging activity, like going on hikes or exercising. Even if it isn't exercising, as long as it is engaging to YOU then it should be good! Personally for me, something that is super engaging would be reading!
I have been getting into reading again! It's definitely nice to sit outside when it's nice out and get lost in a book. I'll have to push myself to do it more!!
On that note... Any book suggestions?! :)
Also, thank you for your response!!!
@dani20 So to keep you busy that there are many ways. You can clean up your homes and take care of your family. And you also can read books that are interesting to you. The most useful way is to work someplace to get pay from it. The last way I told you is to determine what you think.
At the beginning I always slept than after that there's meditation prayer there's aa there's all kinds of new hobbies you can do. There is also the things you've put off doing for the last 4 years because of the drinking.
I just downloaded an app that tracks how long you've gone without drinking, how much you're saving, etc etc. I'm hoping it will put into perspective all the trips I've always talked about but haven't done yet! That's definitely the biggest thing.
I was going to look into AA, but I'm a little nervous showing who I am. Im from a relatively small area with people I've known for years and am worried someone might recognize me. Baby steps, right?