Shame
I drank yesterday so much I went crazy I needed help and couldn’t find it so I drank IAM tired and ashamed tho I know its counterproductive I can’t help but think maybe one glass can help ease the pain but it only makes it bigger i drank until I threw up I couldn’t walk anymore pathetic how can I love my self I’m hurting my self whenever it gets hard for me
You will be able to love yourself. It's a work in progress but you can do it.
I can relate to drinking to numb pain and guilt. It always makes it worse. I recently quit drinking all together. Loving yourself starts with forgiving yourself and that is easier said than done. Confronting my mistakes and forgiving myself seems to be difficult but I'm learning. Because when you hurt yourself you're not loving yourself. Never thought I'd have to learn that. Prayer and meditation seem to help a great deal. I'm also listening to the Jordan Peterson 12 steps for life. It's free on YouTube. Hope it helps.
