dont even know
I absolutely love drinking as much as I can and whenever I can because when I get drunk I just feel like Im on a high buzz Im unable to get when Im sober. Im almost positively sure I could stop myself IF I wanted to, but I dont stop because I dont feel the need to, yet I wonder if this is a health concern I need to check up on? Being sober is so boring. I do this for my own enjoyment and pleasure. Genuinely asking btw
@teekaaay1
Welcome to the community , for the first question if i think its a heath concern as for me personally i wouldn't be able to tell because im not a health professional but if your thinking your need a check up that a thought you might have to act on.
For the second part of your question i will give you my own experience and maybe to think about might not be the same for everyone but this is my own experience so take it with a grain of salt.
When i was using i always told myself ah i could stop this at any time, im just doing it for the heck of it for the fun. unfortunately that was not the case i went down a spiral road and reached a point where i couldn't stopped even i thought i could stop and still believed i could stop.
Saying that , thats my own experience and every person is different but i think it was important to type it in this post as is is relevant.
Im always happy to talk more in private if you like as i don't like to talk to much about my past on the forums
Hope i helped
Peter
@Peter1447
Wow! thank you so much for sharing your experience. I would like to get in contact sometime soon.
@teekaaay1 would love to have a chat. My schedule is on my page if you want to have a look. Also if you leave me a message I will get to you ASAP. Although it seems like it would be nice to have a longer conversation with you so will be better when Im fully available
much love Peter
@Peter1447
thankyou and will do according to your schedule! take care 
I agree. Things that I have become addicted were ones I only believed I had control. It's rare to see your pattern before it really happens. I am glad you know what surrounds you and what you feel. Keep validating and perhaps, see if stopping your enjoyment of drinking for little while, until you have a reason to celebrate. good luck
@teekay1 It is fine to enjoy alcohol if it isn't negatively impacting your life, i.e., isn't causing legal problems and isn't hurting your relationships, work, or physical or mental health. Liking to drink now and again if you don't get out of control and legitimately have a good time is ok.
What is concerning about your post is the "sobriety is boring" part. If you are using alcohol to escape boredom, that is a problem. You really need to ask yourself why you do not enjoy your life. Alcohol for "normal" drinkers is just something that they could take or leave; it doesn't fill a void in their lives.
