Do I have a problem?
Hi guys, I'm a 22F and just looking for a bit of advice
I'll just dish it all out I guess any type of response is appreciated.
I started raving a few years ago and it felt like everything to me, I took my first drug, ecstasy when I was 16 but then didn't start taking it frequently until I was like, 20, I moved out of home and started raving and got connected, and at the beginning I'd only take stuff when I'm out at raves, and I guess I still do beside the odd time. But I just go to raves so frequently, the last couple of weeks it's just been every single weekend and I'm pretty heavy on the bag every time too.
I have friends who do the same so it's so normalised but I suppose what shook me is when I realised I take more then my friends and more frequently then my friends to the point even they started to look at me funny. I have a bad immune system too and I seem to get sick all the time but my nose has been suffering and the doctor has even prescribed me a 6 month prescription for a nasal spray to pick up just so I won't be going into him so much for treatment.
Idk this past week has been hard, I haven't showered all week and I feel like I can't feel anything other than numb and like there's nothing going on in my head other then being tired and I can't seem to make myself do anything.
Getting high doesn't even, it's not the same anymore and doesn't even hit close to what it was at the beginning, but I just don't know what else to do I guess I need to learn how to go out and have fun without getting high but that doesn't appeal to me either.
There's been a few times in the past where I was struggling and I would just feel so awful going to bed that I would take a bit of something just so I wouldn't feel so bad. I havent done that since and it's not a habit.
Im starting a few sessions of therapy in the new year, I don't really know why I'm just so out of it, I just wonder if it's worth bringing up, I know they're just gonna tell me to stop but I don't think I'm going to stop completely any time soon but maybe I need to cut down.
To any real addicts should I be concerned?
@HowdyDoBuckaroo
No judgement here at all!
But, I would be concerned.
Too many people are beginning to normalise social drug taking.
Like it's normal and geared towards fun and letting off steam.
But ultimately any prolonged use isn't good.
If you need it to function.
Your health and hygiene are suffering as a result.
And your nose is showing major evidence.
I don't think personally the majority of people can handle drugs occasionally, it always becomes a problem 💖
I’m in a similar boat but with alcohol. I think you’re asking the right questions. It’s a slippery slope and often people don’t realize it’s a problem until it’s too late. A therapist shouldn’t just tell you to stop they should want to get down to the reason of why you do it. Talk to chat GPT ask for it to not be bias and tell you the truth. I use it a lot and that’s how I found SMART meetings. It’s a meeting to help build tools to fight against cravings. It can be eating, alcohol, drugs, sex, etc. non judgmental really welcoming community. I’m on day 2 and really like it. I hope this helps.