Downers
Constant anxiety is so hard to live with. I feel like I need to medicate to get through living. I can’t hardly do anything without something dampening my senses and anxiety. Which also makes me not know how to deal with things naturally. It prohibits me from actually learning how to overcome social anxiety, how to manage triggers, how to deal with excessive input, god, even just being in bed right now is not great. It takes a lot of self control for me to not just go down to the store and buy a couple beers right now. Sometimes I feel that sobriety is not meant for me. Not with my mental health struggles. I know that’s not completely true. Some people need medication to get through hard periods or disabilities. But I also know my downers aren’t prescription and I honestly don’t know why I refuse to request actually regulated/clean anxiety medication. I guess it’s the shame? It’s so embarrassing to need medication
@Malteffs Thanks for sharing. It’s really brave to talk about how you feel. Living with anxiety every day is super hard, and it makes sense that you’d want something to help calm it down. You’re not alone in feeling unsure about medication. A lot of people feel ashamed or nervous about it, but needing help doesn’t mean something is wrong with you it just means you're going through something tough. You deserve support that helps you feel better. If you ever choose to talk to a doctor, they might be able to help you find something safe that works. And until then, I’m here to listen anytime, no judgment.
Thank you so much for taking the time to read and reply. I try to work through shame everyday. Hopefully I will muster up the courage to ask for medication soon
