What do I even expect

I haven’t written here in a few years and so much has changed…..but then has it

Actually found myself a decent man yet managed to ruin that with all my trauma and just “being me” - everyone leaves

Today I have to go to the place it all started….I asked a guy to inject me with meth and ended up lucky to be alive

I was sold

My other half and I are breaking up and yet struggling to seperate. He knows everything which was huge for me and doesn’t even care what I have to face today cause of work and unfortunate circumstances no choice

I got drunk last night telling him which led to him frustrated and feeling triggered himself cause I cut him off……but I needed the support

This morning all he did was ask if he could do anything

I’m sitting here at work almost more deverstated not having him do something that anything else