18 and just relapsed on stimulants

hi well i got sober for a while when i removed myself from my naborhood and the hustle of that lifestyle (selling and doing selling and doing you know the cycle) i was in a breakup that was bad and got kicked out of where i was staying and living my best sober life because of unblocking a guy cuz my ex was on the lease and i wasnt. I ended up couch hopping for a bit then finally I started hanging out with my old friends from my side of town (that he made me block when i moved in cuz he didnt like them) the "Hood rats" or "wrong crowd" you know. i have been clean for 2 years from snorting things (pills mainly) because my ex watched me like an over protective parent rather than his SO so i never got clean by my own free will and now being back with the people i used to be around it sucked me back in quickly and now i feel stagnit and feel like this constant trapping and danger i was raised around when my mom was an addict will become my life and future im here cuz ik i need help please dont judge and be nice im kinda fragile (diagnosed with manic depression as well so how does that worsen with uppers more specifically adderall please lmk)