I can’t stop looking for new drugs to full in my addiction

Ah damn I feel ya :( i'm in a similar spot I try to distract myself as much as possible by doing something I don't hate so much, like music. Try to find something that would keep your mind off that isn't drugs. It may not cure it or keep you from using, but it can lower the urge and open a new coping mechanism. Do you have anyone you could reach out to? Maybe a hotline, friend or family.