I’m going to relapse
I don’t know how to stop it. I know I’m going to screw up 😭
TW btw for drugs, using, SH, etc.
I'm on house arrest so I can’t go anywhere without my PO knowing, but all day I keep wanting to get the *** cleaners out and huff them to get high. Wtf is wrong with me (addiction, obviously, but huffing cleaners wtf). I never did this. I did pretty *** up drugs, pills, meth, heroin, *** I didn’t even know what it was, but I never huffed chemicals 🥲
I just want to be high so badly. How can I stop this. Idk if I should tell someone. I’m afraid I’ll get in trouble for wanting to do this.
I’ve been going crazy all day. My emotions are out of control, I scratched the *** out of my arms.
i don’t think I can do this ☹️☹️☹️☹️
@tayistrying Hey, I'm extremely sorry about your situation, nobody should have to go through what you are right now. I know you asked if you should tell anyone about this, and in my opinion, I don't think anyone is going to get you in trouble. Support from the people around us help our emotions more often than not. However, this is just my opinion so please don't feel the need to follow through. Please stay strong <3
Sending love and support, sparkly kitten
@SparklyKitten7672
Thank you for the support 🥲 i keep feeing like even thoughts of using is going to get me in trouble, like I actually used. It’s so stupid saying that out loud, I don’t know why I feel like that, realistically I know that’s stupid. I’m just struggling so much, I can’t even think straight 😢
Hello,
Sorry for your situation. Huffing cleaners can be addictive, yeah. But side effects can be very nasty.
Talking about that with someone you trust could be nice, if you can ? Or a specialist ?
I am sure you can do it ! Otherwise you wouldn't be here ?
Don't be ashamed to have this addiction for the moment.
Herbal infusions can help. It won't get you high. But for the recovery, can be very helpful. Hot showers / baths when too much tension / anxiety can be nice too. Good food if you can. And lot of water.
Video games / book can help too.
Stay strong !
( Feel free to write )
