Maybe its too soon?

I have been smoking for a while now. Not at a stretch though, just when life starts life-ing and i cannot cope on my own. Pills used to be my thing as well as alcohol but i decided to quit. I was sober for a while but i fell off the wagon again. Feels like i traded one addiction for the other.

I really want to stop....I really do

I want to throw this pack of cigarette i have stashed in my cupboard away but i am so scared. I am scared that this act of courage - throwing away the cigarette, would be shortlived. I worry that by the time life starts life-ing again, i am going to back at this point.