Meth addiction
I dont know what to do anymore. I'm not a drug addict, ive never done any hard core drugs. My boyfriend on the other hand, only God knows whats hes done.
Anyway hes been on meth for 5 years, weve been together for almost 2 years. I just found out about 2 months ago that hes on meth. Ive tried to accept it but I cant handle the mood swings on both ends. Top it off with lying and cheating. I know i should of left i looong time ago, I have tried so many times; codependancy gets in the way.
Biggest issue is he always comes back and i do not know why, our relationship is horrible. Is there anyone who can explain this to me? Whos been through it.
@Julietlovesu415
Hi Juliet and thank you for sharing your story. I realized in your words that you mentioned about co- dependency. I actually didn't know of such thing until pretty recently. My take on what co-dendency is fear of losing the "idea" of who you are attached to. It can often mean you are in fear of losing ones presence but not because you love or care.
No one should tell you you're weak because you can't let it go. Don't let others influence your decision until you had fair enough time to process and understand the situation with clear mind. It's your speed and not anyone else.
It's not easy when you know they love you and care about you. But you don't need to feel obligated to replicate the same emotions towards them. You have your limitation and no one can tell you otherwise.
You do you and do what your heart desires. If you want to give the guy the benefit of doubt, I don't blame you. Just remember, at what cost are you willing to help him and yourself?
Keep us posted and good luck!
ps- Look for a poetry book called In my head by JM Storm. Author does fantastic job describing his understanding of "her". Author (male) portrays his woman as someone as strong as you are. Have your boyfriend read it to you everynight before you guys goto bed. If he has any remorse of what he put you through, he will shed few tears. :-)
I have been through this before I was a addict and she started using would you like to talk about it might be easier over the phone
My half uncle spiked my weed with it as well as mixing it with cocaine. I was on it for 3 months and used valarian root and tons of milk to detox. He then proceeded to SA me but not exactly horribly, just enough to traumatize me enough at the time. Apparently he's off it now nearly 10 years later according to my aunt. But I don’t trust him. That's the thing, if he's on it and you witness him possessing it you have to call the authorities. He may escalate the abuse and you don’t want it to be too late.
If you want to feel free to message me u maybe able to help ya out definitely grew up for many years around several of these types of relationships