My ex meth and ever in between
In 72hrs it is a full year since I have seen my ex. This last time left me beaten and Broken for what I hope is the last time
A few texts and emails have been exchanged, but no voice no visits which I thought would never happen
I miss him, who I thought he was and how he made me feel. I found a love so deep, i lost everything and am still struggling
Why am I not enough
Why did I compromise my true self
Why am I stuck fighting and jealous of those I love most being where I always dreamed for myself. What has become of me to be so selfish, how do I let go
@tornwillow
Hi! Congratulations on getting through the year. 🥳 I am sure it has been hard. You are grieving a loss, and that takes time and the process is different for everyone. And yes often the grieving is (at least partly) for something we thought existed, though often it wasn't the reality. (who you thought he was). How did he make you feel? Those feelings can be achieved in other ways, first step is figuring out what they are. 💛 We want love from others, but it is hard to create this in a healthy way if we are unwilling to love ourselves. And many of us don't love ourselves because we didn't learn how early in life. But we can learn how to now, and re-parent ourselves. Then we can love and be loved more healthily. Not sure if this is what is going on for you.
