Vulnerable= ex + meth
It all got to much. The world...life. I have been all that is strong and beyond resilient to just find self feeling not enough; not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough and not loveable or worthy. I tried to believe in others when they couldn't themselves only to wind up sharing in the addiction.
I haven't seen him in a year, I haven't used in a year but here I am screaming at the top of my lungs but, no one can hear. He can. Trying to reach out.... how hard it is to resist falling into all I fear to be able to loose for even a second what is real.....loneliness and only purpose in only what I can give..... Social worker. Who'd have thought yet, can't sort own life. I only ever hoped for happily ever after yet maybe only to be part in others journey. I'm not a jealous person yet here I am in envy and no self worth.
@tornwillow
I am so sorry it is not the job you hold nor the person that is feeling the brunt of a broken relationship. I hear the heartbreak and the cry of feeling not good enough. Let me say to you it is not who you are nor what you do that makes you who you are. All of us would love to be able to have the best relationship we can possible, which does not always happen and that hurts us deeply. When someone walks out of our lives, guess what they were not meant to be there. I resonate with how you are feeling but please don't let this define who you are. You are worthy of being loved and cared for by the right person.
You cried and you screened and I heard you and I am here to hold your hand and just be here for you so you are not alone. I am glad that you reached out. We all are here if you want you can get a listener that you can talk to and through this issue. Don't stay isolated and silent. You did real good to post on here so I know that was hard when you're used to helping others and now you find yourself is those shoes. It is alright we all here have our own struggles. Hang in there it is going to get better.
I pray that I have not said anything that I should not have that was not my intent.
I send you love and light🙏💙
