Something I've wanted to vent
I don't know what is it with me.. I sometimes can't feel any emotions when I do mostly I'm sad.. sometimes I feel like crying it all out but can't cry.. I have can't focus on anything. Feels like I've lost the real me , my motivations. Most time I always
distract myself from my emotions I try to ignore my feelings . I hate when I feel like this. I have tried to talk to my mom about this but seems like she never understands and she tells me how other people have to go thru a lot hard things in their life. I totally understand that comparing to others is nothing. But still I feel bad I don't like the way I feel. Distracting myself isn't working anymore. Nothing is working .
well, I understand you. if you'd like to, try to analyze the situation, the emotions or the lack of it. maybe the absence of emotions is a emotion itself, does that makes sense? feeling numb or empty. maybe your subconscious and your body is trying to protect you from something by numbing you, what could that something be? it could be not necessarily a trauma but a fear of something, you know? like a avoidance. it also may help to identify your emotions and feelings, take a time to look for positive, negative and neutral feelings, first in your physical body and then in your mind. for example: what are you feeling in your heart or stomach? maybe tension, maybe relax, maybe fear etc. then I'd suggest you to color that feeling, it works for me. when I feel anxiety in my physical body for example, I recognize it as pink, and when it is in my mind, I recognize it as yellow. when I feel nothing, I usually recognize it as blue. and then I'll just accept that and let it be, until it's gone. if it stays there, there's nothing I can do about but wait and observe.
about crying, it's good to cry, but don't rush yourself to do it. it will come naturally. and it's also good to keep yourself distracted but don't put expectations on been motivated, most of us won't be motivated all of the time, sometimes not even half of the time. just stick to the process.
I hope you heal and be well soon, don't rush your healing process. see ya.
Its really nice that someone atleast understands how I feel. I'll try to sort out my feelings and try to find the reason why I feel like this. Thank you
I'm glad to transmit you some comfort. It's really hard when we feel alienated and I know how it hurts, but remember you are valid and your situation is real. remember you are not your feelings/emotions or lack of them, but they are a part of you. they'll always be part of us, and that's a good thing. I'm sure you'll find a way to be even with your emotions and make them grow easier, just have a little more patience with yourself.
@anxiousbuddhist yupp i hope so.
@onepineapple I am sorry you struggle with expressing emotions, but you are not alone. Many people including myself find it is something to be aware of, finding appropriate ways and times to express emotions.
This is a recent post that discusses that in more detail.
Hope you get the support you need.
@soulsings thanks!
