Alcoholic mom... I don't know what to do anymore
I'm having serious issues with an alcoholic mother... its makes my already existing anxiety much worse and puts so much stress on my shoulders. I feel so powerless and I get so angry that I don't even feel like myself. She's been an alcoholic for as long as I remember and she's made SO MANY empty promises... I can't even trust her anymore. It hurts so much that no matter how hard I try and beg and cry to her , she'll always put the bottle first. The other day I got so angry that I smashed a wine bottle from the fridge during an argument, this was the worst part of the whole thing for her. I felt bad afterwards, and super guilty but I keep telling myself that my anger is valid... I have so much built up anger. Maybe I was too much. I just don't know if I can take this anymore, it isn't fair.
@YellowMellowxxx hi, I am sorry you're going through this. I had an alcoholic ex boyfriend though it didn't last long and I didn't allow myself to get too entangled. I refused to take responsibility and enable him for his behavior. I held him accountable and I also distanced myself. He kept saying he doesn't have a drinking issue, but even after he said he was behaving, he showed up drunk. Again, he said he is not an alcoholic. Well, I don't even know anymore, but yes, I was feeling so alone and like this person wasn't even there, actually they weren't reliable because when I called them they were too busy drinking, but I think honestly that was an excuse for his poor behavior
Anyway, it's not fair to you, and I can see why you would have an issue with it. It's not your fault though and you are not responsible for their problems, I hope you know that.
