Depression

Had a bad night out at a birthday party and didn’t expect to get drunk, but I did and said some thing to my son that I should haven never said to him an I think I broke him for real, ended up getting into an argument with him an then his girl came an hit me an the grand baby came an I accidentally hit her while I was yelling at my son but don’t know if it was after her mom hit me or not. I haven’t seen the video.

Well my son called the cops an told them I hit his daughter who is my granddaughter who I love very much an would have never done anything too like that but I remember telling her no an trying to keep her away from her being by me an her dad arguing. Well I sat in holding an went to court. Still fighting it an DCFS got involved my son isn’t talking to me I did tell him that night I didn’t mean to hit my granddaughter I just didn’t want her by us while arguing but again don’t know if she was coming up cause she seen her mom hit me or before. I haven’t no clue what to do I’m so depressed I can’t see them they are my whole world. I’m dying inside a next month is my sons birthday and mine.