Feeling Weighed Down?
The responsibilities of my relationships
@AshleyNFlewellenLPC having to be mentally strong all the time in a friend situation. When in reality I want to be non existent towards it
Sooo many things but the major two are: 1.
I feel behind in life and like I’m running out of time. I’m about to turn 27. Just lost my job, vehicle, moved back in with parents with not much savings in the bank. Every relationship I’ve had, I got hurt or abandoned. So all the things that matter to me, stability, career growth and finding a cherishing partner doesn’t exist for me and I’m afraid it never will.
Getting up everyday replaying all the hurt I’ve experienced in the past from others. I’ve been bullied, neglected, abandoned, betrayed. I’ve been disappointed so much throughout my life. I just carry this hurt everyday. The pain of being disappointed.
Lots of frustration, sadness, grief, anxiety. I just wish I had someone who really can understand my situation. A real trusted friend, cause I dont trust no one!
My inner critic/voice
Anger and resentment of losing everything all because of something as small as losing my license and lossing 11 months of fighting to find out what I owe only to find out I could habe gotten back then.. would have saved me thousands
@AshleyNFlewellenLPC Although my ex and I ended up becoming best friends which in many ways is so very strange but he strangled me. I am lucky to be alive today. I wanted an apology at one point but never got one. He now is deceased and some reason I miss his friendship but I dont miss him as a partner.
@AshleyNFlewellenLPC Having anxiety over things that can't harm me, but I feel them anyway.