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@LisaMeighanMScGMBPsS hi Lisa💖 hope your doing ok 💖 thanks for the check in💖 I've been definitely struggling with the heat and memories that I'd once blocked out 🙁 wish I could block them out again. Other than that I've been doing ok😁 been sitting outside every morning watching the sunrise, and I finally wrote the poem for my sons birthday, yaaay! He's in heaven but I always attach a poem to a balloon and let it float up to heaven on his birthday😁💖 anyways hope you have a great weekend 💖 gives you a giant tiny hug 💗

@LisaMeighanMScGMBPsS Hello, I am new here. Hi everyone. Just going through things and really needed a community that I feel like I could vent to. It is hard with my family and now ex-boyfriend. Just searching for a way out of this hard life.

Thank you for this. Sometimes being told that we are heard can make a difference.

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I've felt sad and sometimes struggle with anxiousness because I was told last Saturday that someone I was friends with needs time to think and obviously it made me nervous and I cried, but as the week has gone on, I realize that respecting his request is more important. I feel like I shouldn't expect any timeline even though most say to ask. I don't think it's necessary because it's not about me, its about him and when he feels ready. Aside from that, I've surprised myself with how well I have managed this nervewracking period of my life since I don't know what is going to happen, It's already hard as it is so I haven't wanted to put any pressure on good or bad outcomes. I personally feel that when you don't put pressure than the situation because a little easier to manage.

Thanks for posting this and being there for the community! Today was better than yesterday, but trying to stay strong ad best i can.

@LisaMeighanMScGMBPsS @BastionKnight how are you doing??

I know this is probably really silly but I just came back from a Weird Al concert (yes he’s old but he still tours a little) and I’m a little disappointed he didn’t play “Foil.” I still had a good time, he played all my other favorites—“Amish Paradise,” “Party in the CIA,” the good stuff. However, “Foil” is my favorite because it helped me laugh at a difficult experience I had in freshman and sophomore year of high school. In freshman year, I started noticing some delusions and eventually some psychosis. (Yeah, I was oddly aware that my paranoid delusions and grandiose delusions were delusions and that some auditory, tactile, and kinesthetic experiences were not aligned with reality.) In sophomore year, I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type (although it was documented weird, the psychologist told me and my mom that but typed schizoaffective disorder in one line and MDD in the next, which later caused a miscommunication between me and the person prescribing my medication) and I thought it was going to be a life long struggle. Thankfully, I was wrong. It was a side effect of a medication that I kind of didn’t need that badly and I don’t take that anymore and I don’t have to live with that anymore. I say all of that to say that “Foil” helped me have a good laugh about that scary time in my life. In a way though, I’m glad that he didn’t sing “Foil” at the concert because there’s a quiet victory I feel now listening to it by myself.

I’m so glad that the mess was as temporary as it ended up being. I was actually afraid to have kids in the far off future because I thought if I had any kids that I would have a relapse but now I know that as long as I’m meticulously careful with any sort of prescription (I took that medicine as prescribed and it slowly caused me problems) and even coffee I should be okay. That’s the reason I want to be a clinical psychologist. I want to help people in similar situations, especially because not very many of those situations are as temporary. However, conditions like that can be managed very well and I hope to understand people going through such things in a way that most people (thankfully) can’t.