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@LisaMeighanMScGMBPsS

Today I am a mix of very bad and bad because I'm broke, dealing with c-ptsd and it is my first and second day menstruating which is painful.

To deal with it I went to a support group, returned a candle I didn't really need or want, and with the money from the return was able to afford ibuprofen and a bar of chocolate.

I think the hardest thing to deal with is humiliation but remembering that the things people say are more about them then it is about me is helpful.

@LisaMeighanMScGMBPsS I am doing alright. However, not feeling great. I have a lot of stress on top of me and some relationship problems I am dealing with at the same time. Today, I can focus on my personal goals again, Yoga and meditation, which I try to do daily right now to get some movement in my routine which at the same time helps me relax. I can also take a moment and remind myself that I am doing everything I can and that there is no reason to rush. Just keep doing the best you can and enjoy the process of growing your own business. :) How are you doing?

No I am not feeling happy and there is so much I want to change about my life, But one positive thing is I am alive and I have a chance for things to get better.

Honestly right now could be better. I think I should drink a coffee and my day will be better.

@LisaMeighanMScGMBPsS

Unfortunately, not so good. Right now I'm homeless and "camping out" in the woods. Last night my husband and i came "home" to being robbed. Every piece of clothing i had was gone, with the exception of a few things needing washing. But worst of all is that they took all my warm shirts and jeans. And it's FREEZING here. In fact I'm having issues writing this because my fingers are numb from the cold. Plus I've had a horrible chest and head cold all week and feel like crap all over.

The little punk thieves also snagged some jewelry i hadn't even worn yet. I get different products from Amazon with the agreement I'll submit honest reviews. I hadn't had a chance to review the jewelry yet, either. And some of it was very nice.

Oh, and they didn't take the bag of my husband's tools, but they took my little pink tool bag that had inferior tools. BUT i had some other things in there, like some expensive blue tooth ear buds.

AND yesterday i found out i only weigh 99 lbs so i can't even donate plasma. My truck's been down for over a year and a half, although I'm positive I couldn't afford the gas if it were running, but at least my husband could work if it was.

I'm getting cataracts and can't see CRAP anymore, i have Osteopenia (at least HAD it six years ago, so it's probably Osteoporosis by now) and I've lost a lot of bone mass in my jaws which means I'm losing all my teeth, I'm certain either I'm crazy or my husband is, but i flip flop between deciding which of the two of us it is (maybe both), i have BPD, Major Depressive Disorder, and I'm pretty sure there's some Paranoia personality disorder in there as well.

Shoot, i can't afford even inexpensive therapy. Heck, i can barely keep myself alive from week to week.

My phone's battery took a crap on me, it takes forever to charge and drains within a few hours, even if i have it turned off. Food is so expensive, we run out of food stamps halfway through the month. And even though we're getting about half as much again in food stamps than we were two years ago, we're only getting half as much food. What's up with that?

BUT!!!!

Today my husband and I are getting NEW phones from a NEW carrier. The phone we're each getting is the brand's newest 5G phone. Or service includes unlimited everything, a 10 or 15 GB hotspot for each of us, great coverage and only $130 out the door for both of us, and $80 a month. Can't beat that! Always a positive in there somewhere, if you look hard enough. 👀

So please let me know what you suggest for someone who definitely needs therapy, but can in no way afford it?

Well, I'm now off to walk the four miles to the phone place. Husband's staying here to scare the crap out of anymore punk thieves that come lurking around, or worse yet, the ones who robbed us come back for more! 😳🤨

But hopefully when you see me again, it will be from a better phone who's battery holds a charge for a while, like it's supposed to!

Toodles!

And nice to meet you, thank you for inviting me to the thread!

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@LisaMeighanMScGMBPsS

Sunday i thought i had a breakthrough but come Monday morning i was feeling as hopeless as ever and it has not gotten better since.

Why do i bother. I know i am stuck here for the rest of my life. I hope it does not last too long.