Traumatic Experiences Community Daily CheckIn Friday 23rd 2017

@TheAsh

1) How are you feeling to day on a scale of 1-10, why do you give yourself that rating? 0. Its been awful. Pre wedding day spent being fake and dealing with insensitive questions and openly horrible statements. Hubby ended up drunk cos he couldn't deal with them and i feel like ive ruined his life.

2) What is one positive thing that has happened today or within the last few days? nothing

3) What is a small goal that you have for the next few day? How are you going to accomplish it? just survive this wedding. I dont know how.

4) What is something you need today? For the community? From people around you? Just strength to carry on being. Its too hard to pretend to be ok. Therapist wants me to see gp cos she says im finding life difficult. I dont want to see her or anyone.

Hey @TheAsh

1) How are you feeling to day on a scale of 1-10, why do you give yourself that rating?

I'd say a 3 or a 4. Dealing with nightmares and flashbacks all week (and getting triggered last night) has left me feeling drained today. But I focused on self care today, which is helping me to remain grounded and my mood has stabilized as the day progresses.

2) What is one positive thing that has happened today or within the last few days?

Made it to my GP appointment this past Wednesday, which I had previously put off twice because her office is on the other side of town and I haven't felt comfortable leaving the house period, much less venturing across the city.

3) What is a small goal that you have for the next few day? How are you going to accomplish it?

To take my daughter to a bbq on Saturday afternoon at the local community center (there will be a bouncy castle!) despite my recent struggles with agoraphobia and general discomfort with crowds. Lots of deep breathing and positive self talk is on the agenda. Is also why I cleared my slate today for full on self care measures.

4) What is something you need today? For the community? From people around you?

Encouragement that it will get better, understanding that, at the moment, I'm doing the best that I can to manage a sense of feeling stuck. Affirmation that despite feelings to the contrary I'm safe and everything is going to be ok. Mostly I need to be patient and kind to myself.

I'm trying.

1) How are you feeling to day on a scale of 1-10, why do you give yourself that rating?

I would say I'm like a 6 today. Today's been alright. :)

2) What is one positive thing that has happened today or within the last few days?

I've had a somewhat relaxing day today. I got along better yesterday with a coworker I really don't like.

3) What is a small goal that you have for the next few days? How are you going to accomplish it?

One small goal I have is to get some cleaning done. Not a lot. But some. If I try to do a lot I'll give up too quick, but if I shoot for something small, it usually snowballs into more.

4) What is something you need today? For the community? From people around you?

I really just needed to relax, and I feel like I've been able to, while also not being completely sedentary all day. :) ​

@TheAsh

1) How are you feeling to day on a scale of 1-10, why do you give yourself that rating?

6-ish maybe. Overwhelmed a bit. Have great ideas for things and sometimes my brain things "weirdo" and it affects how I feel. I need to believe I am doing my best and my ideas are important to!

2) What is one positive thing that has happened today or within the last few days?

I talked with someone today and worked on a few things and we actually got some things started-made me feel good. Also had a few good giggles

3) What is a small goal that you have for the next few day? How are you going to accomplish it?

To keep participating in my responsibilies keep sharing my thoughts dont give up cause how my brain is thinking at times

4) What is something you need today? For the community? From people around you?

Understanding,participation,ideas

@TheAsh

1) How are you feeling today on a scale of 1-10? Why do you give yourself that rating? I'm going to split my rating in two...hope that's ok with you. I am feeling awful physically, so In that aspect I'll give myself a 2. I give myself that meager number because I've been fighting a bad sinus infection for over a week, and as it got worse through the week, I also developed a double ear infection and acute bronchitis yesterday. Today is the worst I've felt all week because I've coughed and hacked all day, which aggravated my sore throat and mafe my chest hurt, and head ache. I've started on an antibiotic, and I'm hoping by Monday I'll be up to going back to work. On the flip side, my mood has been ok, and I haven't felt much depression (which is fairly rare), so emotionally I'd give myself an 8 today.

2) What is one positive thing that has happened today or within the last few days? One very positive thing that happened today was that I found out that my housing grant extension was approved, which is great news for me because I will now have several months to find a new home for my family (consisting of 3 awesome dogs) and I, instead of just four weeks.

3) What is a small goal that you have for the next few day? How are you going to accomplish it? One small goal I'd like to accomplish by Sunday evening is to finish up my essay and application that is for a program that helps employed individuals with disabilities attain an affordable automobile. I'm going to work to accomplish this goal by setting aside a distraction-free hour (no TV or music on, & my phone put up) on Saturday, and another hour on Sunday to work on finishing my application.

4) What is something you need today? For the community? From people around you? I guess I just need love, encouragement, support, (and sometimes a kick in the pants) from this community and from the "person" around me. I live alone, have no family, and until a week ago, I had no friends (now I have 1 😃). And, I got what I needed from my "one" friend tonight when she called to see how I'm feeling, and she asked if there was anything she could get for me, or bring to me this evening. That gesture, on her part, made my spirit want to dance and sing (irregardless of being sick), because I have been, (and felt) SO alone in life, as well as "on my own" for my entire life. I felt like no one cared an iota about me, but now I'm beginning to feel different, and a little less alone.

Thank you, Ash, for adking such thoughtful and meaningful questions!

1)How are you feeling to day on a scale of 1-10, why do you give yourself that rating?

3. Triggered a lot recently and having hard time grounding and stuff. Failing at everything

2) What is one positive thing that has happened today or within the last few days?

I didn't have panic attack today

3) What is a small goal that you have for the next few day? How are you going to accomplish it?

Shower and eat

4) What is something you need today? For the community? From people around you?

Support and someone to care....