Traumatic Experiences Community Daily CheckIn - Thursday 15 of June 2017

Hi everyone
We all know that life is rough. Our days are long and stressful. We are burdened down with abuse, neglect, just plain pain in our days and life. All that is roaming in our heads and hearts.....what about gratitude? Where does that fit in your days? Where does that fit into our healing and really "moving on"? What is gratitude?
The quality of being thankful, readiness to show appreciation for and to return kindness.
What are you thankful for?
What are some things you can be more thankful for?
Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates a vision for tomorrow
Please share with us on some things you are thankful for. It can be a poem, a drawing, just some words-anything. Be creative- come on-I cant wait
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@RumpleSteeleSkin. I am thankful for family and waking up every morning, I sometimes forget, that tomorrow is always a gift!
@RumpleSteeleSkin. I love all Winnie the pooh characters, thanks!
@jr50
Ill make sure I post more of them just for you
@RumpleSteeleSkin. Thank you much!
@RumpleSteeleSkin
Weel here pass midnight, I am grateful for feeling better,,, pity it gets lower soon but actualy have more hope... I just want to feel secure and good... wish could be happy.
I don't have anywhere else to put this so I'll put it here. I wish someone could help me or at least commiserate with me.
Living with someone that makes life unmanageable when their drinking is anxiety-causing and emotionally painful.
My spouse made this evening miserable and I have hidden the keys.
I'm grateful he passes out, hope he doesn't wake. Got the dishes done, pets fed, etc.
So tired of this way of living. So hard to make progress when every step I take either I mess up or someone else does.
I know it's always drama with me and it is something I should look at. I do feel anxious. I do feel like there's a lot of drama.
I would say I need things to slow down so that I can put two and two together. But I'm sure I'd just find some more drama and make myself the put upon martyr/hero/victim selflessly scrambling behind the scenes conducting damage control. (Yeah, Right)
I am grateful for 7 cups tho, I think.
@themainjane grateful for this too. hope u are ok.
@inventiveOrange1
Thank you. My feelings were hurt but I was able to talk with someone and let it out. I feel much better now.
Hope you are well.
@themainjane Me as well, if I can add to your comment.
@AmalieAnne
Yes, you may. 🙂
@themainjane
Jane I am very glad you are here with us
@RumpleSteeleSkin As am I, @themainjane. ☺️
@RumpleSteeleSkin difficult question. grateful for this site without which distraction life would be even more unbearable.
I want to say grateful i survived two months ago but really am not right now. not sure if that will change.
Still grateful for neverending patience of hubby whose strength never fails despite his own immense grief. He said he sat in the car and cried on the way home yesterday . Im sorry i am not stronger for him. Even more ashamed of the sh and failure to cope.
Grateful for family who try and keep us busy. Tho not looking forward to first family wedding next week without my grandparents. I want to not go because one cousin just had a baby and another is due the week i was. I will just upset them by being there but have to do it for my dad. He will be missing his parents and it will be hard for him too.
Im tired of people saying im strong. If i was i wouldnt be thinking about not being around- Tho i wouldnt ever carry them out it scares me that it would be final and of what i have access to. i just dont want to lose control or the ability to make rational decisions. I dont know when that changes because 16 years ago i thought i was rational until the end.
I am grateful that everyone in the trauma community has a voice and is heard.
@inventiveOrange1
so many hugs to you. ❤
@inventiveOrange1
Do you speak with your counselor before the wedding? Maybe your counselor might have some advice in regards?
I know it would be very difficult for me - for anyone - to be in the position you are.
I think you are doing a great job of opening up.
@themainjane hugs. I open up in here because its anonymous and noone could stop me working at the hosp.
Im not sure im seeing therapist anymore. I lied to her this week about how at risk i was and im afraid without that trust i cant go back.
I guess it doesnt really matter. Im still here.