Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in: Monday December 10th

Happy Monday Trauma Community!
I hope your weekend was good. If not good, I hope it was at least ok. Either way, you made it to today so I am proud of you.
Trending on social media right now is #MyMentalStateIn5Words. I thought we could try it as a new way to share how we are feeling.
- How are you feeling today in 5 words?
- What did you do this weekend for self-care?
- What is one small thing you can do this week for yourself?
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How are you feeling today in 5 words?
Struggling with some bad memories.
What did you do this weekend for self-care?
I took the time to rest and let my shoulder heal. Tried some reading too after a long pause.
What is one small thing you can do this week for yourself?
Try out some new recipes maybe. Try and perk up my poor appetite that way.
@OneErased
I'm sorry to hear you're struggling with memories. It sounds like you are really listening to what your body needs. That's a great idea to try some cooking tailored to avoid certain foods. Let us know how it goes!
Pain. Flashbacks. Emerging memories. Overwhelmed.
Feeling like I dont deserve to live after some of the stuff thats in my head. Like if anything that bad happens to you, you just deserve to drop dead or something. Sorry, I know thats probably not very nice to say but thats kind of how it feels in my head right now. Sorry.
Self-care this weekend. Was helping to get ready for & host an anniversary party. I did what I could but then I felt too overwhelmed or exhausted, I stopped I just sat down and rested and took a moment to enjoy the association with people there. Probably wouldve pushed myself to the point of exhaustion before. So it was nice that I could stop and takes a moment for myself. Thats pretty good progress for me.
this week? I guess keep trying to reach out when Im feeling this poorly and get the support that I need. Sometimes the first source or two that I try its not successful, so just continuing to utilize the many varied resources I have to try and find the reassurance comfort and understanding that I think I need very badly.
it is really hard today. I am trying but it hurts a lot.
@pioneeringBanana1598
I can see how hard you're trying. I think so many here can relate to what you've shared. What you're feeling is understandable and valid. We hear you.
@Kate
How am I : Less anxious but disappointed
Plan for the week: don't avoid the issue, talk directly...which is challenging
@ReallyRuth
Sending some good luck your way. It really is challenging being direct and assertive. You can do it!
@Kate Hi. I don't know words to describe how I am feeling.
@practicalIdeal2007
That's ok, Ideal. Would it help to think of 5 words as they relate to colors maybe?
1 Hectic, 2 but 3 working 4 it 5 out.
This weekend I made a sincere effort to recover after a really hard and low couple weeks. I tackled things I had been putting off for a long time, finally caught up with my agenda again, did my laundry... It was one of those "self care isn't always an indulgent bubble bath" kinda days, haha.
This week, the most important thing I need to do is tackle my final project... But a small step I'll have for myself is to do my agenda every single day. Just look in it, highlight a thing or two. It'll help a tremendous amount, even though it feels like such a teeny thing to do.
@betterchoices
That sounds like a good plan. I keep trying to remind myself to just focus on 1 or 2 things at a time too.
- How are you feeling today in 5 words? Flying emotions on broken bridge
- What did you do this weekend for self-care? Enjoyed coffee and candy and dyed my hair
- What is one small thing you can do this week for yourself? Im baking myself a birthday cake
@Rebekahwriter13
Those are 5 very powerful words. I like the way you expressed that.
Have fun with your plans! You're doing some great self-care.
@AmityLagniappe thank you.
5 words to descibe my mental state:
- going down hill
- broken
- self harm
- death
- abuse
My brother still abuses me.