Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in: Saturday, 18th of May, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I have really missed you all. 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
Soo, I have just totally randomly run into a friend of mine who I have not heard for a good three years. I mean, I am sharing this because we have agreed to meet up today and just catch up with each-other so that means my replies might be slower-than-usual here but do not worry, I will get back to you.
Also, that has just reminded me of something I have been really, really been neglecting lately is my social life and having some sort of support system for myself in place as well.
Of course finding friends and building friendships can be really hard, especially after what you might have been through and it is fine, whichever step you might be at working on your own support system. I mean, you are here with us now, which means that you are already being really brave and strong and reaching out to people here. :)
Also, I have noticed that "friend" can mean a lot of different things and it really depends on the person who they are considering a friend.
So, I am curious tho: What is something(s) that you are looking for a friend? Some trait, quality or anything you would like to have in a people that is or will be your friend :)
Of course, as always, all of the above questions are optional and there is not pressure on you to answer any of them. If you would just like to say hi or just sti with us here for a little bit we would be really happy to have you here with us, no matter what. :)
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Just a hi, I have nothing I am nothing maybe best if I just leave Im sorry for everything
@crimsonLime6525
Sits with you if you would like.
Hey there @crimsonLime6525 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
You are not "nothing". You are such an amazing, strong and caring person and I am really glad to know you and just be able to meet you around here every week. You have nothing to be sorry about, at least I am really proud of you for being so strong and brave and being here with us anyway. :)
Stay awesome!
Not feeling much.
Exams, stress, school.
Hey there @ItsReganingRain *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
Oh, school can sure be really stressful, especially around this time fo the year wtih exams. I am sorry to hear that it is causing you so much stress but I want you to know that you are not alone in this, if there is anything we may be able to help you with we all are here for you. :)
Also, I believe in you, you can do it, you can pass those exams! ^-^
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark Thank you! *hugs back*
@redmark hey!
How are you feeling today? :)
definitely better than yesterday! yesterday i was still sick a lot and my physical health was awful. but then in the evening...wow. my ex-friend, who is the one that abused me and with whom i have experienced my trauma with, texted me. like out of nowhere. and i was like come on. i moved towns. i am so many miles away, why is he still there. and messaged my boyfriend. but then i realized i am so much more calm than i was in the past. In the past, if he messaged me or tried to contact me, i was always experiencing panic attacks or a flashback or got drunk or whatever bad coping mechanism there is else. but yesterday i was like come on dont bother me. this is so new to me. i feel so calm. i was able to sleep perfect. i did not think about it until now (its 10pm)!
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
the week was pretty rough. i got sick on tuesday, like really sick but its slowly getting better.
Hey there @dynamicHemlock1736 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
I am really sorry to hear that you have had such a hard week. Being sick is no fun for sure but I am really glad to hear that you are getting better now. :)
Also, yay! It sure is a big step forward that you have been able to handle that message so calmly now. I mean, I can imagine that something like that can stir up a whole lot of hard emotions and thoughts to deal with but you have done a really amazing job handling it and I am really proud of you :)
I also know that there is just a whole lot of hard work behind this, getting to this point, and it is really amazing of you to make such awesome progress and, honestly, really inspirational as well to have someone share an experience like this and I am really glad you have shared this with us as well as just generally happy for you. :)
Stay awesome!
Hi Red.
I like the rooting for you GIF.
Life has been a bit chaotic lately. Stressful sometimes too. I havent been feeling as well lately. But at least I do have OK moments now. Today there were some rough times when I was feeling pretty poorly and there were also some moments that I enjoyed, at least to a degree. My mom is a huge supporter and she helps a lot. Plus the weather has been nice here lately and weve gone for some walks outside so that has been nice too.
Sometimes its been hurting inside a lot lately. Sometimes, you cant help but wonder things like, why does my life have so much pain in it? I know everyone has struggles and challenges, but from what Ive observed As well as been told, the lives of my friends and family and peers are not typically nearly as filled with pain as mine is. I know its not my fault, and the stuff that happened to me wasnt my fault, but still sometimes you feel like there must be something wrong with me that makes people treat me this way. I know there cant really be something inside of me that makes people speak and/or act in a way that hurts me. But actually, I dont know that for certain. I believed it was true when I was young but as an adult thinking about it, it seems highly illogical. But I still feel like its true sometimes. Easiest way to deal with pain maybe? Limit on yourself. Because youre already used to that. If you leave it on someone else, then I have all this anger and feelings of unfairness etc. to deal with. And that gets overwhelming. So probably easier to just blame yourself and be like, oh yeah theres something wrong with me. That way if I can just change or fix me, then people will stop hurting me. Not that anyone is physically hurting me anymore. Which is something to be grateful for. But there have been some very hurtful things said and done lately. Not intentionally by anyone, but I still have ended up getting really hurt. It gets confusing sometimes. :/
Hey there @pioneeringBanana1598 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
Thank you, I like word-plays and cute things so that was something that I had to share here :P
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a hard week - and just hard time in general lately. I know that some days and weeks can just be really hard for one reason or an other but I am really glad to know that you have your mother there with you to support you and I am glad that you still have some better moments like that. That walk outside sounds really nice for sure and the good weather can help as well to just feel a bit better in general :)
You know, of course I am not in the same sitaution as you, but I think thoughts like that....I kind of know them, or my version of them anyway.
I think it is just a cruel way how our brain can work sometimes. You have been "thought" that it is your fault and old habits do really die hard. I mean, as much as I know you have been working really hard on it, that can still take some time but it is completely fine. The fact that you do doubt it know and that you have shared this I think shows that you have really got far with it and I am just really proud of you.
You know, if it matters, I do not think that you do deserve that pain. I mean, I have been thinking of this lately as well and...well, pain, for a certain degree is part of life, I suppose, but just for a certain degree and nobody deserves to be hust and in pain so much. At least, well, nobody should. It is unfair, I know, and I am really sorry but I do really want you to know that you are not alone in this, we are all here for you, to help you, to just even that playing field out a bit, to make it just a little bit more fair. :)
Of course, I know that opening up and reaching out for others can be scary but one thing is for sure. You are not burdening or bothering anyone here. I mean, I do mean it, I mean it when I say that is always awesome to have you here with us and hear from you here. I mean, you are sharing your journey with us and, sure, there are some low points but also you are really inspiring with the progress you make and, often times, you do take your time here for example to help others as well. You are just a really amazing person and...well, you know me, I will keep reminding you to that as many times as I might need to :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
Thanks for the encouragement. Right now I just feel Like I really, really hate myself. I cant really remember back to a time when I was not to some degree angry with myself or upset or hating self. No wonder it hurts inside so much often.
@pioneeringBanana1598 *offering safe hugs*
It sure is hard and can be really unfair at times. I know it may not feel like that sometimes but you really are an amazing person and deserving of love and care and, if that matters, I want you to know that I do care about you and love you just the way you are and I am sure many others do as well.
Just take your time now, one step at a time and some days just surviving is good enough. We are all here for you :)
@pioneeringBanana1598 just wanted to leave you a safe hug if that
@crimsonLime6525
Thank you Lime. Yes please, that would be nice. Thank you for being kind to me. ❤️
@redmark
Hi Red.
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Hey there @plumApricot8108 *offering safe hugs*
It is really nice to have you here with us!
Oww, I am sorry to hear that, state testing sure can be really, really stressful. I can imagine it had to be really hard for you to get through this week but I want you to know that you are making good progress, getting through it day by day and I am really proud of you :)
Also, of course, you are not alone in this, if there is anything we may be able to help you with or just anything you would like to share or vent about we are always here for you as well and together we can get through this. I believe in you :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
Im so sorry to reply to late to this, school got really stressful and busy and I completely broke down. I
@plumApricot8108 *offering safe hugs*
You have absolutely nothing to say sorry for. Life just gets busy and hard like that sometimes and it is totally okay. I am always glad to hear from you around here no matter when or what.
You are important and awesome, never forget that :)