Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Saturday 20th of April, 2019
Happy Saturday every-amazing-one! I am so happy to hear from you again! 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? :)
I am sorry for this somewhat late check-in for today, I just had an unexpected power outage at the usual time I post these, luckily it was relatively short, so I could get back to you, amazing people, quickly here ^-^
I am really proud of you! ^-^
I do not really have anything on my mind to ask from you or a topic to write about here, I have decided that I just dedicate this week listening to you and just being around with you. :)
If you have anything on your mind you would like to share I would glad to listen to you and, if I can, help you as best as I can. :)
No pressure on you tho, I just want you to know that no matter how it may feel like, what is on your mind and the way you may be feeling is important and valid and so are you. You are not bothering anyone here and you are, and will be, always welcome here. :)
Of course, if you would just like to say hi and sit around with us for a little bit that if totally fine as well. We would be glad to just have you here with us no matter what :)
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@redmark
Hey, how are you doing?
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Hey there @plumApricot8108 *offering safe hugs*
It is really nice to have you here with us!
I am doing okay-ish. Having a week off from work, so I will have some time to recharge tho. Thank you for asking ^-^
Oh...I am really proud of you. I know that opening up can be really scary and hard, especially if you have had negative experience with it preiously, but you are doing a really good job and I am glad that it is going well for you now :)
I am really sorry to hear that you have had such a hard week but I am glad to hear that at least you do get a break now from school a bit with Easter around. Also, it sounds really nice to go Easter-egg hunting with your two little sisters, I hope you will have a nice time :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
Hi, Red. Brilliant thread as always! I'm totally saving those images :p
Just a quick hello from me. I've been traveling for over 12 hours today, still more to come and i'm absolutely knackered.
I'm going to be doing an open chat at some point tomorrow to check on all of you and share hugs and sweets.
Hope you're well!
Hey there @Ayla *offering safe hugs*
It is always really awesome to hear from you around here!
Thank you, I am glad that you do like the images I picked ^-^
Oww...travelling can be really tiring, especially if you have to travel so much. I do hope that you will be able to recharge soon tho :)
That open chat sounds really nice tho, I will try to make it, although I am somehow not the best at remembering times - I am usually just end up being like, "Oh, yeah....that already happened..." - like 1 hour later :P
Uhm....anyway, yep, I will try to make it, sorry for ranting there.
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Thank you for always being so sweet <3
I finally made it home so it is indeed time to recharge and get some proper rest.
don't worry if you don't make it - I don't know what time i'll do it yet anyway, it's going to be a pop up. But I imagine sometime between 4 and 6 ET.
Sends hugs back.
@Ayla I am glad to hear that you have been able to get some rest :)
Well, I will try to make it. Thinking of it, I am not even sure when was the last time I have been around in the group chats. Maybe I will find some time for it this next week, off of work. :)
I feel very sad and hopeless today.
I don't know how this week went for me.
I'm taking it step by step. It's hard to live with trauma.
I'm reaching out everywhere as much as possible so that I increase my probability of getting a close friend that I can relate with and talk with everyday.
Hey there @jkwon *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you are having such a tough time dealing with feelings like that. I know that it can be very hard to live with whatever has happened with you at times but I want you to know that you are not alone in this and together we can get through this. I believe in it anyway and I do believe in you, one step at a time you can get through this.
I am glad to hear that you have decided to reach out to us today. I do hope you will find this place helpful and you are definitely welcome here anytime you may need to vent or there is anything we can help you with or you just do not want to be alone. :)
Stay strong and awesome!
Hi Red.
I know Im a bit late on the response since you posted on Saturday. But this weekend was pretty crazy and I hate to miss out on your posts.
Im feeling a bit frustrated right now. I have some really good people in my life and I know that Im very fortunate to have them. But sometimes its so frustrating because I dont feel understood at times. I am aware of this is probably in part due to gender differences, personality differences, and foremost of all, people who havent experienced trauma and therefore dont understand the depth and severity of emotions that come afterward as a result. Even when I try to explain what PTSD is like, for some people just dont get it. I think sometimes its things that of them seem rather innocuous or just a minor problem in life that you have to deal with. But when you have PTSD, that same experience can be threatening extremely frightening and so on. Its very frustrating when I dont feel understood about that kind of thing. People are trying to help and they mean well but I feel like theyre blowing me off or saying just deal with it. Which if I could, I would! I wouldnt ask for help in that case. But, because I dont look like Im hurting on the inside a lot I think that is also Confusing for people. Sometimes I just want to feel understood! Its so frustrating. And very isolating at times. Its like, yes, to you thats just an ordinary thing of life you have to deal with. But to me it was a terrifying experience that reminded me of terrifying experiences I had as a child and so its going to be very difficult for me to cope with certain situations. I know its not that people dont care but sometimes it feels like it which again, also very frustrating. Just kind of makes you want to bang your head against a brick wall or start screaming. Probably wont do that though ;)
Hey there @pioneeringBanana1598 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
It is perfectly fine to post on my threads mid-week , it is just it may take some extra time for me to get to them - although, this week I am actually off of work - so my replies may be slow. Either way, I am really glad to hear that you do like my threads and that I may be of help for you. :)
Well, trauma and PTSD sure is a complex beast. I suppose many people really just do not understand how just overwhelming and powerful "simple" feelings can be even at times. I guess it is easy to make that sort of mistake of generalization about certain emotions based on your experience, after all at times it is the best we have to start of with.
It definitely is hard when it manifests itself in such invalidating statements tho. I mean, everyone can have a bad day, maybe they are tired, they just "do not want to deal with it" - it stands for anything in general, which happens with all of us, I think - and they may just kind of snap and just give such a response. Not that it is making it any less hurtful.
I know, from my own experience, and I am not dealing with PTSD, but...well, I have recieved some really disheartening responses. I remember when depression has really hit me, somewhere when I was at my second year at the university my grades started to go downhill and people have seen that I am not really studying much - or doing anything really - so I had to be just lazy. I have tried hard tho. Not that it matters now, but I know that it can be really hard when you get such responses when you are really trying your best.
I am not exactly sure what is the right way to deal with this, I guess time and a lot of "trial and error" and people around you may be able to better understand the experience you might have been going through. It can be hard tho and an other hard thing might be the last thing you are looking for at that time.
I am wondering tho if you could try to write a letter, like this one, it really sums up well what you are going through at times with this, and just have this at hand so you can show or send it to others. It is really surprising how some people can really regret things like this and how they can try really hard to change habits like this once they are given a direction or just some feedback like this. :)
There is nor pressure on you tho and, still, I am sorry that you have go through all this and all these reactions. I might now always exactly understand how you feel and may not always be on point but I do always have an open ear - or eyes, I guess - if there is anything I may be able to do to help you better or if you would just like to went or share anything here. You are not alone in this :)
Stay strong and awesome!
I was drugged by nieces on my husband side of family. I'm struggling with details
Hey there @pioneeringYard4482 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
I am terribly sorry to hear that has happened with you. I hope you are safe now and I want you to know that you are not alone in this, no matter what, we are here for you and together we can get through this. I beieve in you :)
Stay awesome!
@pioneeringYard4482
Sending safe hugs if you want them.
@redmark
I today wonder do I act difretnly cos I try sense other energy
and ppl may axpect I act rationaly..
Hey there @conscientiousPineapple1782 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
Oww...some days sure can be really hard and I am sorry to hear that you are struggling like that. I want you to know that you are welcome here no matter what and if there is anything we may be able to help you with feel free to reach out to us here anytime :)
Stay strong and awesome!