Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in: Saturday, 25th of May, 2019
Happy Saturday! I am really looking forward to hear from you once again. 
How are you feeling today? :)
How has this week been for you? Do you have anything you would like to share about it? :)
My week was actually, well, not the best. One of my teeth has decided that it will start to hurt - a lot - so for the first half of the week I have been mostly in pain without being able to get enough sleep. I mean, it is not hurting anymore, but I am just really drained now.
This is the perfect time to recharge tho, and practice some self-care through the weekend to help with that :)
My definition of self-care is not really a strict one, I guess. I mean, just generally any healthy coping mechanisms or activates that make you feel better. Being here, with you, for example is something I do enjoy.
Also, I have my teddy bears aaaand music with me so it should be alright ^-^
Have you got to practice some self-care lately? What is your favourite self-care activity? :)
It doesn't have to be anything big, just something that helps you get through tough days, something that helps you recharge a little bit something that you just enjoy doing every once in a while. :)
Of course, as always, all of the above questions are optional. There is absolutely no pressure to answer any of them and it is completely fine if you would just like to say hi or sit around with us. We are always glad to have you here with us.
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@redmark just saying a quick hi before I go hide in a pillow fort for the rest of the weekend. Not in a good place emotionally but have said enough past couple of days
Hey there @crimsonLime6525 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
You know, a pillow fort sounds really nice. I do hope you will be able to recharge a little bit in there and, if there is anything we may be able to help you with, we are always here for you :)
Stay strong and awesome!
@crimsonLime6525 a pillow fort sounds amazing *safe hugs* sometimes we just need to step away and feel safe. Hope you feel better to come out later!
@Quietone8717 may not come out for a while if at all the way Im feeling
Relaxed.
Exams just finished, so the week was stressful but now it's very relaxing.
@ItsReganingRain great! Enjy the relaxation, you deserve it!
@Quietone8717 Thanks!
Hey there @ItsReganingRain *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to hear from you around here!
yay! I am really happy for you. I knew you can do it and you can get through all those exams and you have done an amazing job, I am really pour of you. You definitely deserve to relax a bit now and I am happy to hear that you are able to get it :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark Thank you! *hugs back*
@redmark
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions. I'm newly pregnant and am excited about it even though it was unexpected. I'm afraid to tell my sister and I talked to my therapist about it. She thinks my fear comes from my childhood abandonment issues and that I'm afraid i will be abandoned by the only person that has been a constant in my life. We are already having so many issues and it feels like this could be an even bigger wedge between us. I wish i didn't have to tell her at all and could just disappear and start a new life somewhere unknown.
@Mashedpotato364 *safe hugs* i am so sorry to hear that you have to deal with this fear but congratulations on such a wonderful thing! I truly hope that this actually brings you and yur sister together more and will rove to be a blessing on many accounts. Hoing for the best for you and yur little one!
@Quietone8717
Thank you! it's nice to have someone be excited with me!
Hey there @Mashedpotato364 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
yay! I am really happy for you, it is always really exciting :)
Of course, I can imagine it is not all hapiness and excitement tho. I can imagine it has to be scary to share it with those you love not knowing their reaction. I am glad to hear that you have been able to discuss this with your therapist at least and, I think at least, that you can take your time with this still. I know it can be hard to build up the courage to tell things like this but, what if your sister will just be as excited and happy as you are? - I mean, isn't that an option as well? :)
Of course, no pressure on you, you can really just take your time now :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Thank you for allowing me to be excited on here. It doesn't feel like I can be in real life because of the way people have reacted, beside my therapist. You're right she could be excited but she has rearranged her life to help me out and support me and has made it very clear she wants nothing to do with having kids around so it means I have to move and I'm sure she will be disappointed in my choice to go through with it.
This is is my first check-in, but I've been trying to work on rebuilding my love for dogs after a little incident. By luck, I didn't get seriously injured. I have a small old dog, but my relatives have more energetic medium dogs that sometimes send me into a panic attack or something of the like. Even my own pom does it when I'm already toeing the edge. I know they are all friendly, and some like to play a little rough, and I love them with all my heart, but there is still a lingering something.
@FunnyDucky01 *offers safe hugs* welcome aboard and i think you are doing great, the fact that you are not completely giving into the fear is fantastic. Every challenge we have takes time and effort to confront and conquer but it is possible with time and support, and we are behind you! Things will get better, i myself suffered the fear of dark flying things (dark birds, bees, even flies!) Which made life very hard as a kid. It actually took different events for me to finally be able to not go into full panic when these things are around, but over time and practice in being brave it got better.
I still hate bees and flies, but i don't run away anymore as soon as i hear or see it (unless i am in a closed room with one and the i calmly look for something to kill it XD) i have my moments still once in a while but then I do my 'its okay' 'whats the worse it can do to me?' And 'I can do this'
I believe in you, you got this!
@Quietone8717
Thank you. I've had more support in overcoming this problem than some others, so I've been able to make a lot of progress. I shoukd tell you a funny story some time. It involves a corgi and a pet store. At the time, it was nowhere near funny, but looking back, I laugh at how such a little thing's baek sent my entire person into a panic. I still love corgis though... (Golden retrievers are another story though..)
Hey there @FunnyDucky *offering safe hugs*
Welcome here! We are really happy to have you here with us!
Oww, I am sorry to hear that you are struggling so much to be around dogs. I can imagine that it has to be really hard to really build up that trust towards dogs in general after that incident but I think it is really nice that you do have your not-so-energetic dog with you there to be able to slowly build it up again. I mean, of course, this can take a lot of time but I believe that, with time, and with the help of such an amazing puppy with you, you will be able to get through this :)
Of course, if there is anything we may be able to help you with, we are always here for you as well ^-^
Stay strong and awesome!
@redmark
Hi. It's a fort kind of day. Missing my daughter
@RedHawk6547 I have no words but you can join me in my pillow fort if you would like to
@crimsonLime6525
Thank you. I would like that. Feeling very alone right now.
@RedHawk6547 I don
@crimsonLime6525
Thanks Lime. Sitting in the fort with you. Safe hugs if you want.
@RedHawk6547 sending a safe hug back. We can stay in here as long as you need to. I
Hey there @RedHawk6547 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
I am sorry to hear that you are feeling like that. It can be certainly hard when you cannot be with those you love but, even if this is not the same, I want you to know that we are all here for you and here you are not alone in this :)
Stay strong and awesome!
Hi Red.
I want to be dead. Im not going to act on that and I am safe and everything. But Im in agony. I just want this to be over with. So tired of fighting with it all the time. I mean, Ill continue going as a person. But all the stuff that Ive been trying to hide my brain and never let myself remember… I think Im done with that. Just let it come out. I already feel terrible so its pretty unlikely that its gonna be worse than where Im at now. At least then I wont have to keep fighting it anymore. I dont know. Not a good place now. Things in present day life keep reminding me of the past and it just feels like The cycle of abuse is starting and happening all over again. I know thats not true but sometimes thats what it feels like. I hate everything. Except for my mom shes great. I feel so sad and so alone and so Ashamed. I just want it to be over. I mean the flashbacks and stuff from the past. So I can move on and have a normal life.
Hey there @pioneeringBanana1598 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to have you here with us!
There is absolutely nothing you should be ashamed of.
I know that trauma and PTSD is just a very terrible thing to go through and such a tough beast to fight. It takes time, a whole lot of it. You know, I know it can really feel hopeless at times but I do know you for a while now. I know how strong you are and how amazing of a progress you have already made. I have seen you grow here and overcome previous obstacles and I know you can overcome this as well.
I can imagine that you are really tired tho as this can really be just overwhelming and really hard but that is why I am always really glad when you share thing with us here because...you are not alone in this. I know that it can be easy to get isolated from others and that it can take a lot of effort to keep connected and you deserve to be heard and to be listened to. To be cared for, the support, the love. You know, I know that I cannot take all that pain away but at least I just want you to know that you do not have to carry all that alone, we are in this together here and we can get through this. I do believe in you :)
Stay strong and awesome!
Hi. Happy your tooth feels better. My weekend was the same as usual. The abuse has not let up yet. I almost died yesterday. So that was fun. Anyway, hope you all have an amazing week! Bye!
Hey there @aiko123 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you here with us!
I am terribly sorry that you have to get through all that. I do want you to know that you are not alone in this and we are all here for you to help you get through this or if you would just like to vent :)
Also, if you feel like you are not safe right now it may be worth to try to reach out to someone. There usually are helplines or even websites regionally where you could even reach out to qualified people who can help you get out of such a situation. I know that it can be scary and hard sometims to reach out for help but I want you to know that you do deserve it and definitely do not deserve to be in such a situation you are at right now. @NoneTheWiser
Stay strong and awesome!