Traumatic Experiences Community Daily Check-in Saturday December 15th, 2018
Hey there! I am back from my self-care break and I have really missed you all and I am really looking forward to hear from you. 
No pressure tho! :)
How are you feeling? :)
I can't beleive that already two weeks has past. I mean, we have made it through two weeks again. Especially this one for me was just crazy but we are just awesome, aren't we? :)
Either way tho, I would love to hear from you about this last two weeks as well:
How has this last two weeks, since we have last talked, been to you? Do you have anything on your mind you would like to share? :)
Also, we are having the first proper snowfall here of this winter and as much as I do not like the cold and gloomy weater of winter I just love the snow and just watching it fall slowly and peacefully :)
I mean, for me snow is one of those things that can make winter just a little bit better. It just makes everything look really beautiful and nice for a while - although, I will have to shovel it later :P - and it even makes the weather a bit warmer - or less cold anyways - which is also really nice.
Also, you can do a bunch of fun stuff on the snow. Thinking of it now, I do not know when was the last time I have built a snow man. Maybe I will go for it now ^-^
Do you like snow? If yes why do you like it? Also, what is your favourite thing about winter? :)
I mean, anyway, I am just really glad to be back with you again :)
Only if you are okay with it, of course :)
Of course, all of the questions are optional above you can answer all of them or none of them, it is up to you, it would be really nice to just have you sit here with us if that's what you are feeling up to right now!
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@redmark heyyy its awesome to see you back
How has this last two weeks, since we have last talked, been to you? Do you have anything on your mind you would like to share? :) well i came down with another cold this week just my luck eh
and i hate snow why turns to ice and hurt myself and it can be dangerous
Hey there @CaringBrit *offering safe hugs*
Thank you! It is really awesome to see you again as well!
I am sorry to hear that you have got a cold again. I can imagine it has to be really frustrating to deal with a second cold in such a short time. I do hope you will get better soon tho and then you will be able to just enjoy this winter and the up-coming season a bit :)
Oh, yep, it can be dangerous when the snow just freezes over and everything gets dangerous like that. I mean, that's why the snow should be shovelled but there are sadly some people who just don't do it and there always are spots like that on the sidewalks :(
Stay awesome!
@redmark just saying hi then hiding in the corner for a little while. Isolating a lot at the minute and know it
Hey there @crimsonLime6525 *offering safe hugs*
It is always really nice to see you around here!
You know, pillow forts have corners as well. Or, well, we can have one that will have corners anyways if you are interested. ^-^
How are you feeling?
Just got rid of a hours long migraine so feeling pretty OK at the moment.
How has this last two weeks, since we have last talked, been to you? Do you have anything on your mind you would like to share?
It's been a long 2 weeks, depression been in a low place. I managed to go shopping for gifts yesterday tho, and actually managed to find something, so it's not that bad right now. One day at a time.
Do you like snow? If yes why do you like it? Also, what is your favourite thing about winter?
I don't like winter or anything to do with winter... Snow means coldness. And I don't like cold one bit lol
Hey there @OneErased *offering safe hugs*
It is really nice to see you around here!
Oww, I am sorry to hear about that migraine, I can imagine it had to be really hard and frustrating to deal with but I am happy that you have got rid of it. yay! ^-^
I am sorry to hear that you have had such a hard time with your depression but I am really glad to hear that yesterday you have been able to get out a bit and get some presents. I mean, I am really bad at getting all presents in time so I think it is awesome that you have been able to get them :)
Oh, yep, winter can be really harsh and cold for sure. I do not know why tho I still found myself enjoying snow but I think it is understandable that you do not like it. I mean, cold weather is bad for sure >.<
Either way, you are right, one day at a time and if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you so feel free to reach out to us here anytime if there is anything we may be able to help you with. :)
Stay strong and aweosme!
Hello. I am glad you are back. Youre always so positive and encouraging. But I am glad you took the break you needed for self-care. As always, I enjoy your pictures/GIFs. They always make me smile. :-)
Winter activity, hmm...I learned how to cross country ski a couple years ago and I really enjoy that. Its very inexpensive, its fun and I stay warm. I havent gone snowboarding in a couple years so I hope I get a chance to do that this year. We had a lot of snow in November but right now we dont have any. Its nice to not worry about driving in the snow lately though. That can be kind of stressful.
How am I today? I dont know. I had some good things happen today. Went out for Dominican food with some friends and it was actually very enjoyable. I do love plantains! Felt more less like I belonged. That has traditionally been a struggle for me so that was nice to feel.
On the other hand, have been struggling with some darker thoughts lately. Today and this week, on and off Ive had these random thoughts about killing myself. It doesnt even make sense to me, because I dont want to do that and I decided a long time ago that I would never do it. But having thoughts about it can be pretty stressful and I dont understand where those thoughts or feelings are coming from, so I dont really know what to do about it or how to address them. I hope it will get better soon. I dont know. I feel a little discouraged, sorry. I am really trying though.
Hey there @pioneeringBanana1598 *offering safe hugs*
It is really awesome to hear from yoiu around here!
Aww, that is so nice of you to say and I am so happy to hear that I may be able to boost your mood a bit or make you smile. yay! ^-^
Now thinking of it, I have not really done any winter sports in my life. Other than maybe sleding - if that is the correct word for it in English when you just slide down on the side of a snowy hill or mountain with...well, anything you find basically, I remember we have used some of those plastic trashbags as well one time :P
Either way, skiing sounds really nice and something I should probably try out sometimes and honestly snowboarding sounds just cool! Although, I do not think I would be any good at it buuut I am actually kind of interested in it now. Either way tho, I hope you will be able to get snowboarding sometimes this year :)
You know, I do not have a drivers license. It's not that much of a neccesity where I live and we never had a car so I never went for it but I can imagine it has to be stressful and harder to drive with snow. 
Ohh, that is sooooo awesome! I am really happy for you. I mean, going out with friends sounds really awesome and I can imagine how awesome it could have felt to just feel like belonging. I mean, even I have to remind myself a lot to that and having just that feeling is so amazing when it actually happens. I am really happy for you to hear that!
Oh...hmm...it is interesting. I would lie if I would say I have never had these kind of thoughts popping up in my head even though, like you, I have made up my mind against it. I mean, I usually just kind of put it down as this ">call of the void<" type of a thing. I have never really understood it either and....I am not sure where I am going with this but I think I just wanted to say that you are not alone.
If it is causing problems for you tho it may be worth to seek a professional or mention it to your current therapist. I mean, you are clearly not suicid so I do not feel like there would be any harm in it and probably it would been helpful to work on this asa well. :) - No pressure tho ^-^
I mean, either way, I am really happy for you to making all those steps and feeling better and I want you to know that we are all here for you if there is anything we may be able to help you with :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark
Hi Red. I hate cold and winter, but I like snow. I know that makes no sense.
Hey there @practicalIdeal2007 *offering safe hugs*
It is so nice to have you here with us!
I think it makes sense. I mean, yep snow needs cold to fall and not melt but on the other hand I think there is more to snow than just being cold. I mean, I guess, it just looks nice and just breaks that otherwise rather grey color winter can have. That's why I do like it anyways. :)
Stay aweseome!
@redmark
Hi. I think my long time listener went on a self care break. She hasn't responded to a message I left a week ago. Either that or she's just not talking with me anymore. It's hard to trust people when they just keep leaving. I appreciate that they volunteer and I understand taking time for self care. I just wish they would have let me know. I've had back luck with listeners before this one, I'm afraid to try again. I miss others too.
@RedHawk6547
Im sorry that happened to you. I feel like I have had some similar experiences with friends in real life. I feel similarly. In that, although it is hard and it hurts, I do understand people needed to make adjustments but I dont understand them not communicating with me. That can be hurtful. Im sorry that happened to you. I understand the feeling of being afraid to trust people.
We care.
Hey there @RedHawk6547 *offering safe hugs*
We are really glad to have you around here with us!
Oww, I am sorry to hear that your listener is not responding. I mean it is possible that they are on a self-care break, as you have menitoned, but I can imagine it has to be still hard for you to not know about her like this. I do hope you will hear from her soon and you will be able to talk again with her! :)
I know these forums are not the same but if there is anything we may be able to help you with we are always here for you tho to help or to just listen :)
Stay strong and awesome!
I broke a front tooth, but the doctor says since there is no pain or swelling it is not an actual emergency. I feel like a goofy jack-o-latern
I call my dentist, now I'm waiting for Monday to get an appointment
Hey there @Rebekahwriter13 *offering safe hugs*
It is really awesome to have you around here with us!
Oww, I am sorry to hear about your tooth. I am glad to hear that it does not hurt tho at least, I mean toothache can be really the most annoying and frustrating thing. I do hope you will be able to get it fixed with your dentist on Monday and get an appointment to get it done as soon as possible still tho! :)
Stay awesome!
@redmark thank you. I'm trying to stay awesome. Lol
@Rebekahwriter13 yay! ^-^
You are doing a really good job at it if you ask me. :)
@redmark retook the emotion test on here and my depression is at 25%