Break up from an emotionally/sometimes physically abusive relationship
It's been two months and usually in the past with break ups I get over them pretty fast but I invested all of me and lost all of me this last time and somedays I just get so mad at myself and him. I get mad that I love him still even after everything he's done to me. I hate it. And that I allowed him to do what he did. And I hate that I essentially sabatoged myself.
My heart goes out to you @meesa215 as I hear what you have been through in this relationship. From my own experience with emotional abuse I know it takes time to recover,and two months isn't very long in terms of this. They say emotional abuse strikes at the very soul. Often we lose the person we once were, have self doubts,and as you say sabotage yourself. So be gentle with your self and and be around those who love and accept you for who you are... friends and family. And there is support here for you too, talking1-1 with a listener or going to the Forums... there is a thread on Emotional Abuse in the Domestic Abuse forum. Wishing you all the best.
I understand.
