Hi~ nice to meet you all :)

Hi~Nice to meet you all!! I just found this thread. :) First I just want to say, 7cups is a awesome place with great vision and impact!!!

Ok, now a little about me :)

My life is pretty interesting I guess, with lots of challenge experience. I've been through family violence, which leads to my depression, PTSD, Bulimia..........and this list goes on to things you can think of. The unpleasant family relation makes me feel lonely and depressed sometimes. I am always looking for adults' love, caring, and appreciation, but more afraid of those at the same time. So...I test people's love and push people away so neither them nor I would be hurt. I feel hurt easily and afraid people won't love me, but I also always feel guilty and afraid of disappointing others. It's always conflict that I want to be love, but not always feel I deserve it. I find healing in love, but also easily being hurt in it. There's more complex thoughts in my life.......

But, I am actually grateful for my experience. It taught me what's love and empathy. I met so many different people during the journey of struggling an healing. I've met people from different backgrounds, different social class.........They taught me how big the world is, and how love can change the world. All this wouldn't happen in my life if I've never been hurt before. It's a long story though, but I am grateful that I get support and is on my way out.

So, after a long long journey, my dream is to become a "listener" :), such as a counselor or a social worker. This is my dream since I was 11 years old, no matter what people said to me. Though people in my family and my country aren't so open-mind about mental health or related career, I'd never change my dream of becoming a social worker/counselor. :) I always want to become a better counselor than those who've hurt me bad in my life, and I also want to feedback to the society because lots of great counselors and social workers had supported me.

I've tried all my best to achieve my dream, and hoping everyone who suffers get the chance to find their way out. I do lots of volunteering in different organizations, I write to newspaper for social issues, I find trainings and workshops......there are lots more, and I never stop trying. I believe all the harms and suffering in life can lead to something meaningful and gorgeous. Although there are always lots of labeling, stereotype, and even statistics opposing our dreams/lifes, we do not have to surrender. I believe all the suffering in life are blessedness that help us grow stronger and more meaningful. I also believe everyone is lovable and worthiness to live on earth. :)

So that's pretty much I'll share today.

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And I have a listener account so if anyone wants to talk~ please tag me and I'll tell you my listener name :) I like that 7cups design the site so people can both listen and help others while also get the chance to be listened and helped.

But I can only listen to teens cause I'm not 18 yet. (Well, I am almost 18, but I kind of enjoy being underage :P ) Please don't just judge me by my age cause I believe life is more about experience and thoughts, and everyone regardless their age, gender, race....... has something we can learn from them. :)

BTW, just a quick question to ask. As one of the requirement in the internship is to focus on one forum, can I focus on this forum? We only have 5 forum choices in the intern kit, but I love this forum so much <3.

I realize this is a pretty long post with some grammar mistake :P So I appreciate whom ever read the whole post. And nice to meet you all!!