My story

My story so far isn't that different than a lot of others you hear. My dad is the adopted son of an abusive ex marine and a drunken, stoner mother who spent all of their money and time passes out or high, which spells trouble all on its own. My mom had a significantly hard childhood, with an abusive step father, and a grossly distant and emotionally abusive mother, with an abusive, psychotic younger sister.

My mom and dad are very different people. My dad has always been physically, emotionally and verbally abusive. He is the poster boy for "Conservative, Caucasian, Christian Dad" and regularly lectures about how all the gays are hellbound abominations, and how anyone with a middle eastern accent is a terrosrist, and how is the a woman's place to be below men, to serve and comfort then when men tell them to. Me being my feminist, closeted pansexual self, with a middle eastern best friend, really tries to ignore this. Really, I do. But this is in addition to the years of physical abuse, which has caused me MANY mental disorders (funny, he doesn't believe in mental disorders, just laziness). I have severe depression, anxiety, bipolar disorder, ptsd to a small extent, panic disorder, paranoia, and a fear of being touched without explicit consent. I'm a mess. And I'm very good at hiding it. Which should concern me more than it does.

My mom is all the same, except she is never physical.

I have 2 years before I'm legal, and I need help.