TW: I need answers please

Hello this is my first time posting here and I don't really know if this is the right place to says this (if not tell me where I should go please) but I'm gonna say this anyway.

Sorry again if it's not the right place for this .

So basically when I was 10-11 years old ( I don't remember exactly) I got (sexually) harassed (he didn't rape me, he just touched me in place that he shouldn't have touched and asked me to kiss him multiple times) by the cousin (he was 18-19 years old at the time) of my neighbors (which used to be our friends). I forgot about it but since the last 2 years all of the memories are coming back but ...

I don't know how to say this but I feel like he did more than just touch me but at the same time I know he didn't do anything else. And recently my sisters told me that one night (before the "cousin thing) we all slept together at my neighbors house (which is something that I don't remember at all) and told me that in the morning I told them that the big brother of my neighbors's family (I think that he was 13-14 years old) did something weird to me at night when I went to the kitchen to get some water. I didn't told that what he did I just told them that he did something weird to me and I didn't want to tell anything to anyone (not even my parents) .

They say that at the time I was really hostile every time somebody talk about what possibly happened to me and didn't want to go to their house anymore. They also told me that after I think 2 weeks it felt like I had forgotten about everything because I was back to what I was before "that night" and didn't understand when people talk to me about what happened .

Could it be possible that I had forgotten about this in such a short amount of time ?

And if so can I possibly get those memories back to know what he did "that night" ?/ Is there a way I can know what he did ?

Also can the trauma be still here but the memories replaced by what happened with their cousin ?

Hope someone will be able to help me or at least read my story .

Thanks already.

Edited by Asher, 8/21/21