TW) Physical/Psychological abuse

Hi, adding again just in case. ✨️Trigger Warning✨️

First of all, I am at 23 yr old female. I use she/her pronouns.

I've recently had memories begin to pop up and I'm finding it difficult to cope and understand. I feel grief, sadness, hurt, anger, and resentment.

I remember being thrown across the living room, having my head slammed into the wall when I didn't make eye contact, having my hair pulled if I took a step away when he wasn't done talking, having my throat grabbed and slammed back into the wall if I talked back. All by my dad.I remember him telling me how I was lucky that I was his daughter because if I were anyone else, he would have killed me. He used to go into great detail about how he wanted to knock me out and stomp me until I was unalived. He used to tell me that he would knock me out before I would ever get to the phone. I've never reported him and now I think I should have, but the thing is that all of his friends were cops, lawyers, or judges and he would always say how it would be my word against his.