Too much

I don't know if this is the right place to post but here it goes.... My exboyfriend (boy friend at the time) has been abusive emotionally/mentally for the past three years but I didn't acknowledge it until he escalated more than I knew he was capable and became violent not only with objects but with me. Pressuring me to take my clothes off but I wouldn't-putting his knee in my crotch and when I told him to stop he pressed harder so I screamed and cried so maybe just maybe someone would hear me. He got so mad and asked why the f*** I wouldn't have sex with him that night when I had had sex with other guys..(I slept with other guys to try to get over him when he would break up with me..stupid-i know) then he punched and broke a table and threw it across the room then punched a whole in the wall started kicking me then wiped his blood on me and laughed. He was way too drunk but I just wonder how long he has been waiting to hurt me. I was going to let him rape and beat me if he wanted to but I was very fearful for my life that he might actually go as far as to kill me so I got away and called the cops. I regret it. But I'm also just really confused and angry and don't know what the neck to think.I don't know what I feel and think most the time I just act since this happened last Friday. He was playing me and this other woman telling both of us for years he was going to break up with the other woman. Every thing that happened was a game and a lie. What to do from here...